Tai Crimson confides her spanking fetish to sadistic therapist Pandora Blake, who kink-shames and humiliates Tai, and prescribes severe corporal punishment to 'cure' her paraphilia.
When we were negotiating this shoot with Tai Crimson, she told us she loved scenarios based on abuses of authority - and particularly humiliation scenes that included emotional abuse alongside severe physical punishment. One form of this which was new to me, but a hot button for Tai, was a kink-shaming scene in which she is punished and abused because she has kinky fantasies. To lend it even more punch, it would be done by a therapist or other caregiver who is supposed to be in a supportive role - but who instead abuses their position to humiliate Tai and gratify their own sadistic impulses.
This severe spanking film is a fantasy straight out of trans porn star Tai Crimson's kinky imagination. In this spanking roleplay, Tai plays a vulnerable young woman struggling with anxiety and intrusive thoughts who begins a course of therapy. She soon finds herself mentioning her spanking and humiliation fetish, but she isn't prepared for the reaction of her therapist, Pandora Blake. It seems that Ms Blake has ideas about kink that are prejudiced and out-dated. Pandora starts spouting ignorant, kink-shaming rhetoric that blames the fetish on something 'happening' during Tai's childhood, and tells her that this is a paraphilia, a mental disorder and that there is something wrong with her.
That's when things start to get seriously twisted. Pandora recommends a course of corrective therapy, based on the idea that Tai's ideation about being spanked only persists because she doesn't really know what it feels like. Once Tai understands that in reality, spankings hurt and there is nothing sexy about being embarrassed and punished, Pandora declares that Tai will be cured. She tells Tai to fetch out a collection of fearsome looking spanking implements, and talks her through her feelings about each one. Of course, she insists that Tai's association of an innocent domestic object like a bath brush with spanking is abnormal and depraved. Once Tai is thoroughly humiliated, Pandora takes her over her knee and raises her skirt, giving her a no-nonsense firm hand spanking to show her what it really feels like.
Poor Tai is so confused; finally, she is experiencing the spanking she always dreamed of receiving, but she never thought it would be in this horrid context, from an ignorant woman saying there is something wrong with her. As the punishment progresses onto Tai's bare bottom, Pandora becomes ever more sadistic. She applies the stingy, vicious bath brush to Tai's cheeks with vigour, punctuating the spanking with a lecture about how sick and disgusting Tai is for fetishising spanking. The solid round wooden paddle turns Tai's bottom rosy red, and no matter how much Tai squirms and cries, she is helpless to resist Pandora's 'therapy' - because if she doesn't submit, Pandora threatens to have her sectioned.
Tai's ordeal continues with the leather strap and, finally, a severe whipping with the heavy leather tawse, all accompanied by a torrent of sneering, judgmental abuse from Pandora. Only when Tai is near tears, and her bottom is swollen, red and marked, does Pandora stop. But she makes it clear that she will continue to administer this type of aversion therapy until Tai gets over her 'perversion'. Ultimately, in this humiliation fantasy, is it the patient who is perverted, or the therapist?
With cuts to the performers laughing and happy behind the scenes included before and after, this dark spanking fantasy is not for the faint-hearted. Please note that it comes with emphatic trigger warnings for kink-shaming, stigmatising language, and emotional and physical abuse of a vulnerable character by a mental health professional.
DIsclaimer: there is nothing wrong with having a spanking fetish, and this is definitely not how therapists should behave.
Photography: Nimue Allen
At the end of a full day's shooting, Pandora and Tai talk about the scene they've just filmed. Tai is disappointed that she didn't cry, but she's happy that her desire for bruises has been fulfilled. They discuss differences between shooting a theatrical feature like Houseboy, and a day of shorter scenes like this one (more kink per hour, to paraphrase Tai). We hear how Pandora felt playing such a mean character, and Tai talking about her lust for tears. There's some frank discussion about personal kinks, the fetishising of trans bodies and sexuality, and how Pandora and Tai are both working to challenge the stereotypes.