So here’s the thing: I’ve been public about a lot. I’ve spanked and been spanked on camera, had sex on camera, shared my deepest, darkest, fantasies with the whole internet. But there are still a lot of things I’ve kept quiet about. Waiting for the right moment to announce it. My trauma healing journey, the therapy training courses I’ve been on, spirituality. You know that since I was young I’ve fantasised about some pretty kinky stuff. Suffering. Non-consensual scenarios that would be horrible in real life. I’ve channeled it into making consensual kinky porn, thinking Maybe if I make these films ethical enough, joyful enough, the fantasies will feel okay. And it worked! Up to a point. I believe it’s helped a lot of people feel better about their fantasies, too. But even so, I’ve been left wondering: what’s really going on? Why is a consent advocate so turned on by non-consent? Why is a fierce feminist so turned on by violation and helplessness? Even after becoming an award-winning film director, it was clear that I had more to figure out to truly come home to myself. That work has been a huge focus of the last years of my life. It’s taken me into the realms of Jungian shadow work, Internal Family Systems therapy, somatic psychotherapy, tantra and meditation. I’ve come out of it more integrated, expanded, and reconnected with parts of myself that were buried even after many years being active on the kink scene. And now I’m ready to share what I’ve learned with you.
When I was in denial about my fantasies – before I knew how to look at them directly, and long before I had the skill to negotiate safe and consensual fantasy play with a partner – they had a way of leaking out. The harder I tried to shove them down, the more likely I was to act out – act compulsively – when I was tired, or drunk, or vulnerable. If we don’t get to know our shadows, our shadows run the show. And a LOT of us have shadow stuff that comes out in erotic fantasy. That’s why I’ve created The Erotic Alchemy Experience. In 21 days, I’ll teach you exactly how to enjoy your most taboo fantasies mindfully, with self-consent, and with YOU in the driving seat.
And here’s the bit I’ve never done publicly: I’ll be doing a live Tarot reading to help you tune into the erotic archetypes at play in your sexual shadow. I’ve never brought Tarot into my professional practice before. It feels exposing, vulnerable, and wildly exciting.
The Erotic Alchemy Experience
21 days to speak the unspeakable, embrace your hidden desires, and transform your sexual shadow into gold.
Over 5 live calls (finishing just in time for Christmas!) I’ll support you to: 🔥 Befriend your sexual shadow – the hidden urges and hungers that show up in your fantasies🔮 Discover your erotic archetypes through live group Tarot reading🗺️ Map your Internal Sexual System (the victim, the villain, and everyone else) and discover their unique gifts⚗️ Master Emotional Alchemy – how to transmute emotional pain into erotic pleasure🧭 Feel the difference between inherited shame and internal boundaries🕯️ Learn how eroticizing oppression can help us heal – and how to do it ethically🌊 Develop self-consent and somatic techniques to stay grounded as you explore your erotic edge🌈 Become fully integrated – shadows embraced, power reclaimed. Maybe there’s a part of you that still feels shame around some of the things that turn you on. If so, this if for you. If you already feel pretty good about our kinks, even better. You’re primed to go deeper: to get to know the hidden parts of yourself that come through in your erotic fantasies, discover what gifts they have to offer, and step into a new kind of wholeness. The part of yourself you’ve disowned often carries exactly the qualities you need to level up – the fierceness, the desire, the willingness to transgress, the capacity to hold power.When you integrate your erotic shadow, you’re not just healing your sexuality. You’re reclaiming parts of yourself that have been exiled. And those parts often carry exactly the medicine you need for your next level of growth.
5 Live Calls
Full Access to Replays
Likeminded Community
Personal attention from me
…all this for only $33!
(this is INSANELY good value for what I’m offering. From January, I’ll be charging 10x more)
STARTS: TOMORROW, Friday Nov 28th 5pm GMT
Yes please, I want to alchemize my secret desires into gold!
Pandora / Blake Becoming
Kinky educator • Sex worker • Shadow alchemist
