My film about feminist submission, self-pleasure and spanking fantasies, My Inner Little Girl, will be screened at the Cinekink festival on Saturday 1 March, at the Anthology Film Archives in New York City. I won't be able to attend the screening but if you want to go and tell me how it went, you can register a ticket here.
Two young lovers find themselves caught in flagrante delicto by a master magician - and he isn't impressed. After thrashing his apprentice for failing to rein in his passions, Master Finlay informs Sophie that she has untrained magical ability, and must learn to control it or she will put herself and others in danger. He offers to take her on as his second apprentice. Sophie can't believe her good fortune - her old life was not worth clinging to, and she accepts the opportunity gladly, even though it means undergoing to a painful initiation ceremony.
I've always loved the idea of sacred or ceremonial kink; the use of blindfolds, restraints, whipping and flogging in magical ritual. There's something deliciously objectifying about being a ritual object or a sacrifice to the gods, body mortified to raise power for a higher cause.
On the other hand, blindfolds and flogging can play a part in an initiation ceremony or a rite of passage, where the focus of attention is very much on the celebrant - as with the ritual conducted to mark Sophie's initiation into the path of magical learning. Either way, this is about using pain and sensory deprivation to achieve an altered state of consciousness.
Now that she is officially subject to the magician's authority, Sophie must learn to control her passions and her powers. To teach her this lesson Master Finlay straps her bottom soundly with a razor strop of worn, thick leather.
But even the pain of Sophie's punishment - or the chores she is set afterwards - do not diminish her joy at finally finding a place where she belongs.
I'm home from a fantastic party with much loved kinky friends, a smile on my face and bruises on my bottom. Several of the Dreams cast were there, although sadly not either of my doms. But there was a silver lining to their absence: I got to play with lots of other people instead, and my toppy side came out as I gave both Caroline Grey and Jimmy Holloway the spankings and canings their beautiful bottoms deserve. I also found myself over both Caroline's and Adele Haze's knees at various points, as well as receiving the attentions of several other delightful tops. So lovely to play with good friends off camera as well as on. Good times!
I've added two scenes to the site since Thursday's audio story - a photoset and a video with accompanying stills. A Secretarial Fantasy includes 94 high quality photos of me in glasses, stockings and a pinstriped slip, bending over the desk for punishment with hand and tawse:
Boss/secretary spankings are as old as typewriters and red pen, but we wanted to do one anyway. It's hard to play a scene this classic "straight" - as strictly non-consensual, I mean. This power dynamic has been eroticised so often that it's impossible to pretend this is a no-nonsense punishment without any sexy overtones. So we didn't try.
Thomas could say "We cant go on doing this all day seven days a week" and Pandora would say, eyes wide open, "Why not ??!"
Today's update is a short Shakespearean spanking film with some accompanying photos. Me, Caroline and Thomas using Kate and Bianca's fight scene from The Taming of the Shrew as a springboard for spankings both in and out of character. Director Cameron has his work cut out trying to control his squabbling actresses, neither of whom can seem to remember their lines. And he's not sure Caroline should be following the stage directions to tie up and strike her co-actress with quite so much enthusiasm...
I've wanted to film Shakespearean spankings since playing the Complete Works over the course of five weekends with a group of friends who included several likeminded deviants. We managed to bring out a fair amount of kink in different scenes and plays.
The Taming of the Shrew is the classic starting place - but I wanted to have a go at a less well-known spanking opportunity, between the two sisters rather than Kate and Petruchio. Any straightforward rendition of the play, however, results in a negligible number of spanks, so we decided to go backstage and re-run the critical moment in rehearsal, with some added punishment of the (obviously kinky) actresses by the director.
All three of us are theatre nerds, and this light-hearted take on a favourite play was a hell of a lot of fun. I hope you can forgive the self-indulgence and enjoy the corsets, petticoats and iambic pentameter - and, of course, the spankings!