Our new film Houseboy is a departure from the usual videos on Dreams of Spanking - and most other spanking sites. This is our first attempt at a cinematic short film, aiming for a higher standard of cinematography and storytelling than we are usually able to achieve. I wasn't planning to shoot this way from the start - it came about from a convergence of factors that created the perfect opportunity to try something new.
Casting Tai Crimson
It started last year, when I met an enthusiastically kinky and ridiculously cute young person from San Francisco. He was gorgeous, he loved spanking - he could certainly take it - and he expressed an interest in shooting for Dreams of Spanking. He wasn't old enough at that point to perform in porn, but I said that once he turned 18 I'd be very happy to work with him. We made plans to shoot together when he was next in the UK - which happened to be May 2015, less than a week after his eighteenth birthday. How's that for a coming-of-age celebration?
I normally prefer to work with kinksters who are a little older, simply because I value emotional maturity and experience in the people I shoot with. I think the common fetish for "barely 18" performers in porn is partly based on the idea that young performers are vulnerable, and so it's easier to take advantage of them and push their limits. I find this sleazy and totally unethical, and I'd always much rather work with older players who know their own minds and are able to look after themselves. It's important to me that the performers I hire can take responsibility for their own limits and communication, are experienced enough players to know their bodies and their preferences, and are secure in their decision to appear in fetish porn - because once you've done it, there's no going back.
When I met Tai, however, he exploded all of my preconceptions. Although a teenager, he has a rock solid sense of his kinky identity, and he's been exploring his interest in private for years. He is calm, confident, intelligent, self-reliant, and very emotionally mature. So at eighteen and a few days, Tai officially beats Talia Lane to the position of youngest performer on Dreams of Spanking - and yes, we do have his ID on file to prove it!
We put a date in the diary, and meanwhile Tai and I exchanged emails discussing his interests and preferences. But by March this year, when I needed to start firming up plans, I already knew that ATVOD were investigating Dreams of Spanking and that I was likely to have to stop updating the site for a duration of several months while my appeal was underway. I had lots of scenes already shot starring Fauni, Mike, Talia and David and others which I wasn't going to be able to publish, so there was absolutely no point spending money and energy shooting more material that might never see the light of day.
Towards a cinematic style
Meanwhile, I'd attended the British Fetish Film Festival in February and the Berlin Porn Film Festival last October, and I'd been thinking an awful lot about shooting styles, production values, and the budget and time constraints under which I was shooting.
Over five years I have developed a shoot style that produces one 10-15 minute spanking film per hour, in a remarkably stress free environment, with plenty of breaks. This is based on improvised scenes filmed live by one or two handheld camera operators, with perhaps some close-ups or cutaways to enhance anticipation in the build up to the spanking scenes, but otherwise shot with as few cuts as possible - unless the performers themselves need to cut. Lightweight, consumer-grade cameras make handheld shooting manageable without the camera operators getting too tired, and using auto-focus allows us to get visual variety by roaming around the scene shooting different angles, rather than stopping the action to reset each shot.
This non-disruptive shooting style allows the performers to get into an immersive scene space and stay in character, which helps the roleplay flow more smoothly, and also helps the bottom stay in their headspace and makes the spanking itself easier to take. It's a system that Nimue and I have got down to a fine art, and I was pleased that we'd reached a point where we could create nice-looking films within budget, while maintaining a relaxed and fun shoot environment for everyone involved.
The downside of this low-key shooting style is that the resulting films would never achieve the cinematic quality that I was seeing at the film festivals I was going to. I'd had a couple of films rejected from international festivals, presumably because the videography, audio quality and storytelling wasn't up to scratch. I found myself wanting to level up, and see if with a bit more money, time and effort, I could raise my production values and put Dreams of Spanking on the map as a credible producer of cinema-quality films.
So rather than hire Tai for a day shooting a number of improvised ten minute website updates, I decided to use him to do something different. I booked amazing boudoir photographer Matt Christie to help out with the videography - he'd expressed an interest in shooting video last time we shot together, he has a commercial-grade camera and he also had access to an amazing location perfect for the scenario I had in mind.
I started penning ideas for a single 10-15 minute short film. Not five films, or six films, or seven. Just one.
Developing the story
With Tai, I had an articulate and gorgeous masculine-of-center performer with a submissive streak a mile wide, who loved being spanked. I thought about the films I was seeing at festivals, and the lack of beautifully-shot female/male BDSM films shot from a female perspective, with a male submissive who is both beautiful and interesting, and not just a cipher propping up a sexually objectified female dominant. Instead of this I wanted to make Tai the lust object and protagonist of the film, focussing both the lens on his body, and the story on his character's journey.
I started with a fairly traditional plot - a young man applying for a submissive role in the household of an established mistress. I brainstormed ideas for visual storytelling, thinking about ways to focus the storyline on the tension and anticipation Tai's character feels before he takes the plunge towards fulfilling his submissive desires. I considered ways to create an interesting power dynamic between his character and mine. I quickly realised that I'd need a third performer, another submissive serving the mistress - someone to make his arrival at the house feel more formal and more intimidating.
I'd already talked to my friend Eliza Grey about having her on set as a shoot assistant, helping out behind the camera (she had planned to be with us on our shoot in November, but had sadly been unable to make it). I realised she'd be perfect for the role of a bitchy receptionist, enhancing Tai's nerves before his interview with the Madame... and once I'd cast Eliza, the rest of the story fell into place.
Writing the script
Ten days before the shoot, I was hurrying to finish the script on my laptop on the train. I'd never written lines for characters to say before, and I was finding it surprisingly difficult. I'd write a line, then agonise over it. What if Tai doesn't feel comfortable saying that? What if that's not what Eliza would say? I've always made a political point of not putting words in my performers' mouths, and suddenly that was what I was literally doing. At the same time I was all-too-aware that they were going to need to memorise their lines, and time was running out.
I closed my eyes, wrote some lines telling myself they were only placeholders, and sent it off with an apologetic email saying this was a very rough draft, and inviting them to make any changes they wanted. But my anxiety proved unfounded. In the end, bar one wording change, that script was the one we used - and Tai and Eliza rocked it.
Working with a storyboard
A week before the shoot I was on D's sofa after a fetish party, scribbling a 'storyboard' in biro on A4 paper from his printer while my friends chatted around me. After writing the screenplay I had a strong visual image in my mind's eye of what most of the shots would look like - now it was just a case of creating a visual reference so I could communicate my ideas to Matt on the day. I'd visited Matt's location a week ago, so the rooms were fresh in my mind. It was a useful exercise to think through camera angles and compose the shots, but I'm pretty sure it was the crappiest storyboard anyone has ever worked from. The most hilarious of my terrible stick figure drawings was this sketch of Eliza being spanked over my knee and feeling sad about it:
Professional production all round, innit.
The day of the shoot
The shoot day approached. I bought food and props, looked up travel options, packed suitcases, selected implements, printed scripts and release forms. Shortly before the day I realised that I'd inadvertently booked our shoot on the same day as the London Marathon, and the location we were using was only one block away from the route. That meant that not only would transport potentially be disrupted, but the exterior shots would all have a huge amount of background noise. Still, at this late stage there was nothing to be done about it. I booked an 8am taxi, the traffic at that hour was fine, and I was on set at 9am. Matt and I drank coffee and looked through the storyboard, then Tai and Eliza arrived - and it was all go.
Shooting from a script was a totally new experience for me, and a steep learning curve. I'd worked out the best shooting order, shooting the story in as close to chronological order as possible while minimising room and lighting changes. After that it was just a question of staying calm, following the callsheet and taking it one shot at a time.
I was using an external mic for the first time, and was grateful to have Eliza helping out and sharing the responsibility for making sure the mic was a) close enough, b) not in shot, and c) recording each time. She was also an absolute star helping out with moving lights, checking camera batteries and memory cards, making tea and tidying up behind us. A+++, would work with again. Plus it turned out she could seriously act...
It was a full day, perhaps a bit too full - nerves started to fray after a few hours, and everyone was feeling tired by mid-afternoon. The shoot would definitely have been easier with more camera crew or fewer scenes to fit in. After a few hours, Matt noticed a round smudge in the middle of the lens, and wiped it off - but of course there wasn't time to go back and re-shoot the shots we'd already done. By the time we came to shoot the confrontation between Tai and Eliza in the kitchen, everyone was so tired that that scene took about seven takes. Some of the shots ended up out of focus, and we got through so many cans of tonic that I was worried we'd run out!
Editing the film
Still, despite all that, when I came to look at the footage I was pleased to discover that most of it looked how I'd expected. There were a few surprises in the edit - such as that moment when I realised the reverse shot in one dialogue scene crossed the line and was therefore unusable, and was suddenly grateful that we'd shot three angles of that particular scene, even though at the time it felt like overkill. It was a monster of an edit, but satisfying too, sorting through all the footage, plugging it into place, and seeing how the scenes I'd envisioned in my mind played out on camera.
Choosing the music was another daunting prospect - I knew I wanted to avoid re-using the same creative commons soundtracks that you hear time and time again in indie porn, and that meant spending money. But how to start looking? First I worked out where music was needed - in the intro sequence, the montage, and the closing credits, which meant I needed two or three pieces in total. Then I did a rough edit of those sequences so I had a vague idea of how long the music would need to be. After that, I set a day aside to browse SoundDogs, typing in different keywords and playing pieces with my eyes closed, visualing the film, until I hit on a genre that felt right. I realised that for this story my usual taste in piano and cello-dominated classical and film score music wouldn't work - Tai's character needed something moody and masculine, guitar-led, energetic and driving. Finally I whittled down a selection, downloaded some samples and started laying them over the edit to see what worked.
Primarily, this film was intended to be screened at film festivals - which meant that the narrative would have a different structure than standard spanking films. In a film intended for someone to watch while having a wank, you need a carefully paced build-up and pay-off that sustains uninterrupted shots of climactic spanking action for long enough for the viewer to reach orgasm. In a longer film, there might be two of three of these build-ups and climaxes, separated by character-driven story. But at a film festival, the audience are watching to have their minds stimulated, not their genitals. Fast-paced editing is preferable, providing lots of new visual information with every shot. Explicit sequences need to be edited down to the bare minimum necessary to develop the characters and progress the story. So that was a new challenge: cutting the 15 minutes of high quality spanking action in, for instance, Tai's audition scene, down to the three minutes earmarked for it in the festival edit. The only way I was able to do it was by promising myself that I'd release the full, uncut scene as an extended edition on Dreams of Spanking later. But meanwhile the deadline for the Berlin Porn Film Festival was June 30th, so I had to get the shorter edit finished first...
In the end, thankfully, it was finished in time to submit to Berlin, and I'm hopeful that they'll accept it. I'll be submitting it to various other film festivals over the summer as well. I'm really happy with the finished film, and completely honoured to have been trusted with Tai and Eliza's porn debuts - and thrilled that they had a good time.
And that's a wrap!
It was a really long shoot day. We finished the scheduled shots around 7pm, 10 hours after I'd arrived on set. But then we cracked open the champagne and ended up chatting and buzzing on a total high, which led to another two hours shooting performer interviews, and even a behind the scenes caning for Tai when he confessed he still didn't think he'd been spanked enough...
By the time we finally turned the cameras off, sat down for some supper and tidied everything away, the sun had gone down - and it was 11pm before I finally got into a cab. Matt and I had been on set for fourteen hours, Tai and Eliza for thirteen. I am so grateful to the three of them for their enthusiasm, dedication and professionalism. It was a long fucking shoot and everyone put in so much energy and creativity it was kind of overwhelming. Overall, this production cost ten times as much as an average Dreams of Spanking video, but even so I still came away feeling like I hadn't paid people enough for the amount of work they'd put in.
Overall, this was a very satisfying project, and I'm really happy to have it under my belt. But it also taught me a lot about the trade-off that arises when you move towards a more cinematic shooting style. My previous method gave my performers more breaks, less stress and a much more satisfying kink experience. Shooting Houseboy, we did the bare minimum of spanking needed to get the shots I wanted - and stopping to move the camera, check the focus and lighting, consult the storyboard every few seconds made it hard to get immersed into a satisfying spanking headspace. I'm glad I hadn't scripted any particularly hard spanking scenes, because I think severe corporal punishment would be much more emotionally and physically challenging to take in this context.
I hadn't realised it before, but shooting in a more amateur style results in a much more rewarding experience for the performers - with more opportunity for top and bottom to develop an in-scene chemistry, focus on each other rather than the camera, and time for the bottom to sink into a yummy submissive headspace, without constant distractions.
So what can I take away from this? Well, I've learned that shooting in a cinematic style is something I can do, and that's good to know. I've learned that it's hard work, at least ten times as expensive as my usual shooting style, and considerably more time-consuming to produce and edit. It's also exhilarating, exhausting, and very creatively satisfying. I'm glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and gave it a go, and I'm hopeful that the finished film will be screened in Berlin this year. But I've also learned that I don't want to start shooting this way every time. Perhaps I might be able to put out one cinematic film a year, but this experiment has restored my faith in my usual low-key way of shooting, which it turns out is preferable experience for me and my performers - and a much better environment to ask people to take hard spankings in. Our standard Dreams of Spanking shoots emphasise process over product, and trying something new has re-affirmed my faith in that process.
You can watch the long-play trailer for Houseboy below - and if you're a site member, please watch the full film and tell me what you think - and make sure you also check out the extended editions of Tai's and Eliza's spanking scenes, performer interviews and Tai's off-the-cuff behind the scenes caning.
What do you get when you put the Dreams of Spanking team in a house with a giant hot tub? Wet spankings! In this week's film David Weston and Talia Lane are let loose on a mountain of bubbles, for a playful, performer-driven switch spanking scene.
I'm not sure what there's more of in this update – kisses or bottom smacks. Talia and David have such a giggly, loved-up vibe that watching them playing together feels like a realy intimate moment. They're sharing their delight at being able to explore each other's bodies in a luxurious bubble bath, and you almost feel like the camera isn't there.
I know there are plenty of people who love homemade porn – what's often known as 'amateur porn' although it's often anything but. I can totally see the appeal of this, because while sometimes it's a shorthand for shaky camera work, most frequently it is a signifier of chemistry. Homemade porn is usually made by people who have serious desire for each other and who want to capture that on film.
In this scene, David and Talia's natural playfulness shines through, and it's a glimpse into how this real life couple are in... well... real life. It's something they brought spectacularly to their first video together – in which they played the naughty schoolboy and schoolgirl punished by strict Ms Blake – and this scene takes it to the next level.
I think my favourite bit in 'Bubble Butts' is David's gleeful cry of “more spanks please!” - it sums up perfectly the joy he takes in a good bare bottom spanking, and his excitement at playing on camera with his girlfriend. Perhaps the only thing that tops it is Talia's demand for more kisses.
This film came out in time for Valentine's Day last weekend, so it's a perfect excuse for glorious, unashamed cuteness: and I know of very few porn couples who embody sexy spanking cuteness quite like David and Talia.
It feels like I've done a lot of travelling this year - a month in the US in April; two festivals over the summer, one of which was a whole week away; a long weekend in Spain and a week in Berlin. Girl on the Net and AJ have done fantastic work keeping things ticking over tidily behind the scenes, and for the most part I've not done badly at getting hot new spanking films edited and uploaded in time to keep to our regular update schedule - even while I'm away. I'm proud to say that in the nearly-three years I've been running Dreams of Spanking, I've never missed an update.
However, a full fictional spanking film with actors and costumes and a plot and everything isn't the quickest thing in the world to make, and sometimes it's better not to rush it. Which is why, while I was in Berlin, I uploaded a video diary instead, dishing all the gossip about the kinky fun I had two weeks earlier at the World Spain Party.
But it wasn't just a video blog: it contained some spanking too.
I mentioned before that the London Tanner asked me to participate in a sunset strapping outside the villa on the last evening of the party, to create some fun images he could use to promote the event. I was keen. What I didn't expect was that as well as the gallery of 26 beautiful photos taken by Only Real Princess and Mr Stern, bathed in gorgeous golden light, Only Real Princess also recorded a couple of minutes of video.
It's admittedly rather short, and very blurry (and I actually made some bits of it more blurry on purpose, to protect the identities of partygoers) but for me it's a wonderful reminder of the warmth, fun and relaxed atmosphere of the Spanish party, and of a lovely scene with my friend Ian.
Both the video and the photos are available to watch absolutely free, so even if you aren't currently a member of Dreams of Spanking, head on over and feast your eyes on what happened when my bottom met the London Tanner's razor strop.
When I first got into BDSM I imagined terrifying Doms who would call me awful names and beat me to within an inch of crying. As I got more involved, I was touched and turned on in equal measure watching couples perform aftercare – that post-play winding down where you really see the care they have for each other.
Our recent spanking film with Nimue Allen and David Weston captures all the tenderness and affection of aftercare. As Nimue rubs lotion on his throbbing cane marks, and caresses his gorgeous bum, David wriggles and luxuriates in the sensation of being pampered.
I also love the fact that this scene includes lots of giggling. Having admired (read: fancied) David since his first appearances on Dreams of Spanking ('David's Strict Governess' is a particular favourite) it's lovely to see a scene that shows a more playful side to his personality. Nimue and David have a fantastic chemistry – she flirts and teases him, marvelling at how she can feel the cane marks on his bottom. And he pushes his bum up to meet her firm hand, grinning with pleasure.
When Pandora sent me the video, she explained that David was keen to do a playful scene after the other more serious punishments. When he came to the last scene of the day he'd just shot 'The Clone's Training', a dark and intense sci-fi drama. Knowing that, this whole aftercare scene feels very real - the giggles a well-deserved release after the tension of taking his first ever cold caning, and the rubs and soothing touch a relaxing reward at the end of a hard day.
As David gets the giggles Nimue spanks him harder, laughing along with him and both enjoying the pleasure of a playful spanking.
I challenge you to watch it and not fall in love with them a little bit. There's so much candid tenderness in this film that it made me yearn for someone to do that to me.
It was my second date with Molly Malone, and I was late. An hour late. I couldn't phone or text to let her know I was on my way, because I'd lost my phone coming home from my US trip earlier in the month, and didn't have a new one yet. So she sat in the pub for an hour, not knowing if I was coming, wondering what sort of headgame I might be playing, while I dashed across London cursing and kicking myself for not having any way of contacting her.
When I finally arrived I was hugely apologetic, but understandably she was pretty upset. I knew how she felt; I'd been the one left waiting in her position before, and it was no fun at all. I'd been really looking forward to seeing her, and now it looked like I'd ruined the evening before it had begun.
I groveled and promised to spoil her rotten to make it up for it, but I'd cocked up big time - and might have messed up this brand new, exciting connection before it even got started. What if she didn't want to see me again?
I don't remember which of us first suggested corporal punishment as a possible way to resolve the situation. Thinking back, I'm hugely grateful that she was willing to offer me the option - a way out, the opportunity for catharsis, forgiveness. We agreed that twelve cold cane strokes would be a fair tally. I bent over the back of the sofa for them. It had been a long time since I felt as if I genuinely deserved, and needed, a punishment.
This wasn't domestic discipline within a pre-negotiated dom/sub relationship. It was spur of the moment crisis management. But it was invaluable. It did exactly what we'd hoped it would: cleared the air, rekindled intimacy and affection, restored our sense of humour. Molly felt miles better after giving me a thorough beating for wasting her time and leaving her hanging. And knowing I'd paid fair and square for my poor behaviour, so did I.
When I invited her to shoot with Dreams of Spanking a month later, we needed a storyline for a simple domestic F/F scene with me on the receiving end. We decided to keep it real and re-enact my punishment from a couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately, since I needed to not be marked afterwards, we couldn't re-enact the caning - so we made it a hard hand spanking instead. And trust me, Molly has a strong right arm - this was hard.
Watching and editing this video was poignant for me. I'm sad to say that this wasn't the last time I cocked up and hurt Molly with selfish, careless behaviour. This wasn't the worst, either. The incident that broke us up, only a few weeks later, was far worse than being late for a date, and not one that could be healed with cathartic punishment spanking. I did something really bad, and it was a huge learning experience for me in taking responsibility for my behaviour. Molly has accepted my apologies and we're friends again now, but watching this video was bittersweet. I can't help feeling that I was nowhere near contrite enough in the roleplay, and that she was nowhere near severe enough with me - but perhaps that's just residual guilt talking.
Sharing your real life love affairs, discipline dynamics and relationships in porn can be great fun and hugely fulfilling, and it gives me the chance to express myself through art, without artifice. But it can be painful as well as pleasurable. That's the price you pay.
This is a very real, very personal expression of a bittersweet moment in a short relationship that left a lasting impression. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to watch it without a sense of regret. There are some things spanking can't heal - but for the day-to-day hurts and hiccups, it can be surprisingly powerful. This film is the true story of how consensual discipline can create positive change, a way out of a tricky emotional situation, redemption and healing. As spanking videos go, it doesn't get much more real than this.
If you’ve read Pandora’s updates from the Feminist Porn Awards in Toronto, you’ll already know a bit about Zahra Stardust. Sexual activist, champion pole dancer, and scorchingly hot porn star, Zahra’s been making waves all across the world. This year, she won ‘Heart Throb of the Year’ at the Feminist Porn Awards (very shortly after this shooting this scene, in fact!) and it’s clearly well deserved, because having been introduced to her through this orgasmic spanking film I have a massive crush on her myself.
Zahra Stardust is utterly gorgeous, with beautiful piercings, tattoos, hot pink hair and a delightfully filthy grin - dressed in sheer knickers and a pink latex microskirt, I can see why Pandora was so excited to take her over the knee.
She's not just a pretty face, but an exceptional activist too - she’s run for parliament three times in her home country of Australia, and is currently doing a PhD on pornography.
Zahra's mission is to change the world, one orgasm at a time. Through artistic porn depicting authentic queer sexuality and female pleasure, her work celebrates consent, bruises and bodily fluids, and self-deterministic representation. And in this spanking video, with a firm helping hand from Pandora, some slow and hard strokes with the strap, and her Hitachi Magic Wand, she does just that.
I think one of the things I love most about Zahra is that when you watch her you get these amazing hot kicks of lust at each moment when she expresses pleasure. She’s never stoic or silent: she gasps and sighs with arousal, gripping the pillows tightly as the strap bites into her flesh, with blissful smiles and happy moans when she’s being pleasured in just the right way.
This scene isn’t just a spanking (although of course there are plenty of opportunities to admire Zahra’s gorgeous bum as she gets spanked through sheer knickers and in just a tantalising pearl thong), it’s the build-up to an explicit and delicious orgasm. We get to watch Pandora squeeze and touch Zahra all over, see what she loves and how she reacts to the spanking sensations she was so curious about. And for those who - like me - enjoy a bit of consensual choking and breath play, the climax to Spanking Zahra Stardust is off the end of the hotness scale.
I recently published a cold caning video in which I bent over for twelve hard strokes from Paul Kennedy. Paul is one of my favourite caners. He has a wonderful calm, stern manner which really puts me into the right headspace when we're roleplaying, and his use of the cane is expert, administering precisely calibrated, accurate strokes.
Few people are able to land twelve strokes of the cane that leave perfectly parallel lines, evenly imprinted across both buttocks and perfectly spaced from top to bottom of my preferred spanking zone. He enjoys aiming low strokes to land just above my crease - or even exactly on it - as much as I love receiving them, and he has a lovely habit of saving the best, hardest, lowest strokes til last. Caning perfection.
Anyway, it seems that several of you liked this scene as much as I enjoyed filming it, which makes me happy. One commenter asked:
I actually think that this needs a blog post, but in any case what I would like to know is what was going through your mind as you were reaching for your toes? "Now this will all be over in a week or so," or "What on Earth was I thinking," or "I need to get milk the next time I go shopping," or something else.
Good question! Let me mentally rewind, and imagine myself back in that room, bending over and nervously anticipating the first stroke...
Ugh, I wish I could touch my toes properly. I need to do more yoga. Okay, breathe through the pain in my hamstrings, concentrate on bending at the hip. That's as low as I can go. I guess it'll have to do.
I hope the cameras are all lined up correctly. No it's fine - we just set up the shot with my bending over, and James and Alex are keeping an eye on it. They'll let me know if something's not right. Relax, Pandora.
Oh gosh, this is going to hurt. I'd better be brave or my members will think I can't take it. But it'll be worth it - the marks will be really pretty. At least I hope so. I hope Paul does it hard enough. I asked him to be severe. If it's not hard enough to leave nice marks this will all have been for nothing.
Okay, breathe, breathe. Come on, Pandora, you've done this before. You can take it. Easy peasy. You love the cane. Okay, Paul is lining up the first stroke. Breathe in. Slowly. Count to four. And... just as I can hear the cane swishing down... breathe out. And there it is. Ow. Keep exhaling. Nice and slow. Good girl. Okay, ow, ow, ow. That really fucking hurts.
Come on, you can do this. Let it out. A bit of reaction is good for the video. You can make a bit of fuss. That's it.
Oh god, that's actually getting worse, it's getting more painful by the second. Can I really take eleven more of these? What the hell was I thinking?
As it turns out, I could take them. It helped that we cut after six strokes to change James' shot, and I admit I was not at all disappointed to have a minute to catch my breath!
The first six strokes were hard to take. The second landed higher than is pleasurable for me, and I jumped up and clutched my bottom, relieved that this wasn't a scene where I had to be completely stoic. Reacting physically and vocally to a caning really helps me process the pain. The next four weren't as high on my bottom, and that made them easier for me to take.
After six strokes and a breather, my endorphins had kicked in. The last six therefore felt delicious. Deep, thuddy impacts that made me groan with satisfaction. My breathing exercises moved me into a meditative, calm, floaty space where I ws glad I didn't have to think of any lines of dialogue, and could just be present in my body, in the moment, totally immersed in the intense sensations of a slow, hard caning.
By the end, those low, hard strokes on my crease were so erotically pleasurable that I had to focus on sounding like I was in pain, and not just deeply aroused. Somehow I figured that letting my natural, giggly moans of pleasure surface wouldn't quite have fit the mood of an office punishment scene...
So now you know what I was thinking as I bent over and touched my toes for a cold caning. Was it anything like what you expected?
I'm both nervous and excited to share our latest film, which shows what I fantasise about as I bring myself to my first ever orgasm on video! My Inner Little Girl dips between fantasy and reality, combining an erotic solo masturbation scene with an F/F age play spanking fantasy, complete with little white socks, kicking, crying and the hairbrush.
This 17 minute film is accompanied by 60 high definition screengrabs, and also Tammy's Shame, a new photo gallery which illustrates Tamora's fantasy.
Tamora is a high-powered businesswoman. She loves her work, but it's a lot of responsibility. Back home after a long day, she unwinds by putting on school uniform, and reconnecting with her inner little girl.
In her fantasies, Tammy is helpless, told what to wear, what to do, and spanked if she disobeys. The thought of being taken over the knee and spanked soundly on her bare bottom until she kicks and cries just turns her on so much. It's the perfect escape from the stress of grown up life - and a sure way to a very real, very pleasurable orgasm.
And along with our photogallery Ms Howard's Little Girl, here's a bit more of a peek into the spanking of Tamora's dreams...
Tammy's aunt is so strict. She won't even let her wear skirts inside the house. Ms Howard believes that having her knickers on display will teach Tammy some humility. Plus, it means she can't leave the house without asking permission - unless she wants to walk out of the door in her underwear!
When Ms Howard sets her a long list of rules to memorise, Tammy quickly gets bored. She wanders over to the window and sees some boys outside. She can't go out and talk to them, but she can give them a show. She waves to them, unbuttons her school blouse and quickly has their attention. With their encouragement she even pulls her bra aside to reveal her budding breasts.
Ms Howard picks just that moment to come back to see how Tammy is getting on with the rules. She is horrified to discover her niece exposing herself at the window to all and sundry. She grabs Tammy's ear and pulls out a straight backed chair. Clearly the spankings Tammy has already received have not had enough of an effect. This time, it's going to be the hairbrush, and it's going to be hard.
Although I've already published some hardcore photographs on this site, I've never done anything this sexually explicit on video before. Throughout my career, I've always intended to save my hardcore "virginity" for Dreams of Spanking, and have never taken things beyond softcore eroticism when modelling for other people's websites.
I've been wanting to make a film like this for years. As soon as I came up with the name "Dreams of Spanking" I knew I wanted to make films about sex and masturbation showing the fantasies of the people involved... which in my case of course is almost always spanking!
I very much hope to create more explicit films in the future - specifically, I'd love to shoot some real world kinky sex videos with my real life lovers, starting with my longterm partners Tom and D. But it felt right that my first orgasm on camera should be a solo scene, directed and controlled entirely by myself. Creating this film, for me, was about empowerment, ownership and self-determination. I wrote the storyboard a long time ago, and although Tamora is a fictional character, the story expresses something true about myself. I'm glad I was able to edit this film myself to make it look exactly as I'd envisioned - even if watching my own face and chest flush as I approached orgasm was an incredibly surreal experience!
Besides, believe it or not, I was shy about shooting this film, and I felt pretty shy about releasing it, too. On the day of the shoot I wanted to feel as comfortable and relaxed as possible, and doing it solo meant I wasn't performing for anyone other than the camera, which my good friend Nimue was operating. Nimue and I have little to hide from each other these days, and of course she is no stranger to sex and masturbation on camera - in fact, I had operated the camera for a masturbation scene for her site only the day before. So asking her to return the favour felt balanced, reciprocal, and extremely safe.
Performing in porn can be a weirdly vulnerable experience at times, leaving you feeling very exposed. I hope you enjoy this film; it's very personal for me. To my relief, My Inner Little Girl has only provoked positive feedback so far, and no-one has been unkind or told me I look ridiculous.
Please do let me know if you'd like to see more films like this on Dreams of Spanking. Now that the first one is up, I think I'd really enjoy making more.
Two very different scenes for you this week - one grown-up and glamorous, the other exuberant and silly. First, we have a sensual boudoir photogallery of me completely nude, and secondly a playful puppy play scene with Michael Darling as sexy and submissive as you've ever seen him.
Step into my boudoir, and enjoy some sleepy, sensual photos of me lazing and stretching in my bedroom, fully nude and bathed in early morning sunlight.
These photos are the first set from a recent photo shoot with D, myself and new photographer Matt Christie. Matt is an amazing photographer who specialises in glamour, boudoir and art nude, and to my delight he was comfortable with shooting fetish as well.
It was a full day and we shot thousands of photos, including lots of spanking, glamour, bondage, dominance and submission and some ruder activities too. You know D and I by now, so this shouldn't come as a surprise. I'm looking forward to sharing the rest with you.
At the other end of the spectrum, our latest video stars Nimue Allen and Michael Darling as a kinky couple indulging in some puppy/mistress roleplay. (Or should that be puppy/mummy? I've always felt like the relationship with a pet is closer to "parent" than "master"...)
Puppy roleplay isn't really my kink, although I have enjoyed pet play before. However, it is a huge interest of Michael's and of Nimue's, and I'm always interested in shooting the scenes that genuinely get my performers excited. As soon as they started playing, I began to realise what I'd been missing. Puppy play is awesome. Just take a look at this trailer:
Michael wants some puppy time, and Nimue is happy to play with him. Whether the game is fetch, tug-of-war or sit up and beg, the rules are simple: good puppies get treats, and bad puppies get punished.
I wasn't sure how this scene would turn out, but the shoot was so much fun it had all three of us laughing out loud, and the resulting video is adorable.
Mikey is the cutest happy puppy!
Check out those big puppydog eyes as Mikey lifts his paw to be smacked...
And really badly behaved puppies have to drop to all fours to be punished more severely.
The appeal of puppy play is right there in the name - more than many fetishy activities it is about play in the most direct sense of the world; playfulness, fun, silliness and physicality. Here's what Michael has to say about this aspect of his kink:
Puppy play has been a favourite roleplay of mine for many years. I love how it incorporates elements of BDSM (training, discipline, collars, cages...) but at the same time there's romping and bounding about, scritching and belly rubs and playing around with other puppies. There's a fun and wonderfully tactile sensuality to it: when I'm in puppy headspace I feel incredibly centred in my body and want to run, sniff, lick and explore, and for doing so I'm rewarded with petting, head scritches and enthusiastic cries of "good boy!" It's a playful way of exploring master/pet power dynamics through the eyes of a fun-loving puppy dog.
This week's updates include something from mine and Pandora's early archives, and something fairly new and very attractive from Pandora and Molly Malone. Our latest video is a second instalment in their instructional series which debuted with Introducing the Cane. In this scene the lovely ladies demonstrate the process and practicalities of scene negotiation. Here's the trailer:
In this instructional video Molly and Pandora discuss the best ways to negotiate within a spanking scene. They demonstrate techniques including in-role ways for bottoms to express their needs, ways for tops to check in with their bottoms, and ways to deal with ending or taking time our from a scene if necessary. Finally the ladies discuss how to say "please no" when you mean "please yes". Molly and Pandora demonstrate all these techniques while spanking each other, including thigh spanking, the leather paddle and the tawse!
I particularly liked this moment for Molly's entirely blissed out expression.
These shades of green and pink do go together well, don't they?
"Please don't, miss!" Pandora bends over for a demonstration of the principles of consensual non-c0nsent.
This is both a hot spanking scene in its own right and a useful, sensitive exploration of consent and negotiation.
For your additional pleasure, we also have a new photo gallery, Kitchen Punishments.
Pandora has been daydreaming about spanking rather than doing her chores. When Tom comes home and discovers the kitchen still a mess, her fantasy is about to become reality.
This is the sequel to Messy Kitchen, and is the last set of photos from that shoot in 2006. It was our first attempt to shoot our own spanking photos at home, with a photographer recruited from Net-Model (who preferred not to be named), no lighting, and not even much idea of what we were going to do during the shoot.
Pandora had only done a couple of spanking shoots for other producers, and had already been bitten by the bug to shoot her own material. She had a vague idea she might want her own site "one day", but no concrete plans, or even a name, as yet. Still, I liked spanking her and even better doing so on camera, so we decided to have a go regardless.
We've come such a very long way since those early days, with a clearer vision, higher production values and a great deal of hard work and laughter along the way. We would never have made it without support from our members, so thank you all, and we hope you enjoy looking back to where it all began!