Nearly two years ago I wrote a letter to Dreams of Spanking explaining why, with great reluctance, I needed to step away from the project for a while. At the time I wasn't sure if or when I would be able to come back to it. It was over a year before I updated the site again, with a new, sexier queer spanking porn film co-created with Chelsea Poe and Courtney Trouble. There was another pause, and since February this year we've released three new scenes - one a month, and we have another one lined up for this weekend. It seems that one way or another Dreams of Spanking has wiggled its way back into my schedule - and my heart.
I thought it was time to touch base and let you know what's going on with the site, and what you can expect.
In the immediate term, there's a new update coming this weekend - one for fans of our cinematic Victorian epic Mrs Smith's Method, showing Amelia Jane, Molly, Adele and I in a new light.
Beyond that, I have ten new scenes edited - all they need is images and previews, copy, trailers etc. I've been having good success this year with delegating those sorts of jobs (thanks Zak and Violet for the fantastic copy writing, and Nimue for the trailers!), and I'm currently trying out different image editors to see who's a good fit. Once I've put the finishing touches to the team we'll be able to continue to keep the site updated regularly with minimal input from me; all I'll need to do is edit the films themselves, plus whatever promotion I feel like doing.
Those of you who have been following my personal blog and social media posts will already know my happy news, but it's just occurred to me that I haven't shared it here explicitly yet. After trying to conceive for a year, I'm now eight months pregnant, and absolutely thrilled to be bringing a new life into the world with my amazing partner Felix. Our baby is due in July, and I couldn't be happier!
As well as gestating a human infant, I'm also gestating a book. It's about what we do with the sexual fantasies we have that are in tension with our politics and personal ethics, and how we resolve that tension. It's non-fiction, combining autobiography, personal essays, and academic writing. I've got 60000 words of it written so far, two thirds of that since January. Book and baby are currently racing to the finish line; I'm well aware that I'll need to substantially revise what I've written, but I'd love to have a zeroth draft of the manuscript finished before I give birth. To prioritise that project, and look after my body in the final weeks of my pregnancy, I'm stopping all other work and taking a writing sabbatical from 1 June. It's just going to be me, at home, writing and getting ready for the baby.
Long-form writing is deeply immersive and requires far more of my attention than pretty much any other endeavour I've found to date. Loading the project in my head takes a lot of wind-up time (and energy), and once it's loaded, it's really hard for me to focus on anything else. It's not convenient for me to multitask, or interleave writing the book with other projects.
For the next two months I'm going to focus on writing - which doesn't leave much attention spare for updating Dreams of Spanking. And from mid-July onwards (perhaps later, perhaps earlier - eek!), I'll be a fulltime parent and totally unavailable for anything else for a while. I intend to ease myself back into part-time work gently once my baby is a few weeks or months old, but I'm not putting myself under pressure to do so on any particular schedule. So if I want to update the site while I'm on parental leave, having a team of people to help me do it is absolutely essential. I'm in conversation with someone about taking on a project management role, so I can hand over that final step of keeping track of everything and making sure it all comes together in time to deliver you regular new spanking content.
With ten scenes in the bank, it looks like there'll be regular updates for a while - which is great! However, I haven't committed to a specific update schedule yet. One a month would take us to next March before I had to edit anything new. I'll almost certainly be able (and want) to edit new videos before then; I have eleven other scenes filmed and waiting to be edited, mostly dating from before I called a halt to the weekly Dreams of Spanking update schedule in 2017, and Nimue and I are planning to shoot at least one more next month. (I'm eager to shoot at least one pregnant spanking film before I give birth!)
I was wondering about whether that's enough content to go up to two updates a month, but that would only take us up until the end of October - which would put a lot of pressure on me to edit two videos a month from September onwards, on top of my parenting (and other) commitments. I don't want to commit to a schedule I can't sustain.
So it will probably work out somewhere between the two - at least one new scene a month, perhaps one every three weeks if I find myself shooting and editing new content more rapidly than I expect. Members will, of course, get access to everything new the moment it goes live - follow us on Twitter, add this blog to your feed reader, and join our mailing list to stay abreast of new releases.
It's been a while since Dreams of Spanking had a regular, predictable update schedule. Feels good right?
Here's a sneak preview of what Tom and I will be taking to the vendor's fair at the World Spain Party this weekend. It's been very exciting seeing things arrive bit by bit over the last few days.
Knowing how short of time I've been this week, D kindly organised the poster prints for me from his local printing shop. In D's words, here's what happened next:
I initially spoke to the bloke I usually speak to, who did the leaflets for me that time. "Today I am running errands for my girlfriend's porn business."¹
"She wants some A3 posters printing, I think she spoke to you."
"She might have done. She didn't sound like a porn queen."²
So then we discussed the type of paper and sorted that, then I gave them the USB stick.
"Er, what sort of images are we about to print, by the way?"
So he plugs the stick into another guy's machine and says the name of the type of paper they want to go on. The guy copies the folder, loads the first image, and everyone in the office looks at it, then turns their heads around to look at me.
"No, that's not me."
"I'm probably in there though."
They start opening more images.
"I'll just leave you to that then shall I?"
1. Bold, I thought.
2. I am choosing to take this as a compliment.
D added that the first photo they opened was, in fact, me and Tom getting up to some OTK hand spanking - "So more your butt and Tom really."
"A match made in heaven," I grinned. Apparently when he collected the posters the guy had put the images featuring D at the top of the pile in what was clearly some sort of deliberate comment. They also told him they must have written his phone number down wrong "because they'd phoned some poor woman up and told her her spanking posters were ready." He's not sure he believes them, but it's good to know they approach unusual projects with such good humour!
I'm picking up the poster prints from D tonight - I can't wait to see them. Tom and I fly out on Friday morning and the vendor's fair is Friday evening. Exciting times!