I hope you all had a good weekend? Mine was a mixture of work and rest, with a late night editing on Friday night, an all-afternoon switch spanking session on Saturday (I'm definitely rediscovering my bottoming mojo after a bit of a fallow period - hooray!) followed by a hot date with D, and a leisurely Sunday divided between working out and watching films. Perfect.
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We recently uploaded our third film starring Vincent Brennan, which also just happens to be the first scene of his first ever spanking shoot! He had never been spanked on camera before, and the scenario was dreamed up by him.
The shoot had its challenges, but all three performers did a great job, and even after some of the footage was lost this film is worth watching. I can certainly see why Vincent liked the idea of being ganged up on by two strict nurses at once!
Nurse Molly is outraged when a cheeky patient smacks her bottom, but things start looking much worse for Vincent when Molly's colleague Zoe comes in to see what all the noise is. It turns out that this isn't the first time Vincent has sexually harrassed a medical professional - nor is it the first time he's found himself in this position.
If Molly and Zoe have anything to do with it, this is the last time he'll ever treat them or one of their colleagues this way. The pair join forces to teach him a lesson he'll never forget.
One unexpected kinky moment was when Molly was in such a hurry to turn the rude Vincent over her knee that she started out spanking him while still wearing her latex medical gloves. Hey, I'm sure that's someone's fetish. She then slowly, deliberately removed them, while looking him in the eye and telling him about the severe spanking he was about to receive. Oh my.
This is a playful scene with some amusing backchat from Vincent and eye rolling and interplay between Molly and Zoe as they pull out all the stops in an attempt to get through to him. He does learn his lesson... eventually. Well, that's what he claims...
Nursing a Grudge also includes extensive behind the scenes materials including an out-takes video, interview with Vincent and some fabulous behind the scenes photos by Dodgy Dave.
We've uploaded two new spanking scenes this week. First up is Sunlight and Stilettos, a steamy glamour photoset featuring me and my real life lover D, shot by the uber-talented Matt Christie; and secondly we have our first judicial CP film Drunk and Disorderly, a full force F/M 30 stroke cold caning starring Zoe Montana and Vincent Brennan.
I didn't realise until I came to write this blogpost that both our scenes this week feature a clothed top and naked bottom - so that's one CFNM and one CMNF for the power play fans amongst you. (Although thinking about it, D is topless and barefoot, and he very rarely wears underwear, so he's only actually in a pair of jeans. Including my 6" fetish heels, we're both wearing one garment each. I'm not sure that quite matches the spirit of CMNF, but it should please those of you who enjoy looking at shirtless male doms.)
Sunlight and Stilettos
Wearing high fetish heels and wiggling her bottom in a figure-hugging dress, Pandora hopes to entice her lover to spank her. Warm sunlight bathes their bare skin as D gives her exactly what she wants.
I've wanted to shoot a spanking photoset in this dress since I bought it in Atlantic City last April. I swear it was designed by someone with a bottom fetish - it clings to my curves so tightly I can't get away with underwear beneath it!
This was the first set of the day and it was a beautiful summer morning, hot enough that we were both keen to get naked. We shot some amazing sets that day, and the sexual chemistry just kept on ramping up.
I think D looks fantastic in these photos. He's been working hard on his fitness the last couple of years, and I for one appreciate his improved lean physique. I frequently objectify him at home. We both wanted some up-to-date pictures of him, and I was keen to show off his figure. Ladies, enjoy. Perv all you wish. There's more of D to come from that shoot, too :)
Matt Christie is a fantastic photographer. This was my first time working with him and I will definitely have him back. I'm nearly up to date with processing the summer's shoots now, and am looking forward to showing you some previews from the rest of that day soon.
Meanwhile, our newest film stars Vincent Brennan alongside Zoe Montana and Molly Malone, and is our first judicial-level caning of a male spankee. I've already written about the shoot - and the mistake I made that day which affected the quality of our output. Thankfully, the reception to Drunk and Disorderly so far has been positive - so don't take my word for it, watch it for yourself and see what you think.
After a night in the cells, Vincent's obnoxious behaviour irritates the officer processing his paperwork so much that she decides to make his day a little more unpleasant. A strip search does him no favours, and he is given a choice: a lengthy court process culminating in eventual jail time, or judicial corporal punishment and a same-day release.
Thinking that a WPC can't possibly do that much damage, Vincent consents to the judicial caning. He is in for a hell of a shock. His big mouth earns him more and more strokes, leading to a total of 30 full-force strokes of the cane.
This week I edited the second scene we shot with Vincent Brennan back in August. It went up last night, and I'll tell you more about it in my next post, but first I wanted to talk about that shoot. I haven't previewed the scenes from that day yet because I made a really stupid mistake.
Shooting always involves risks. Usually they pay off. For instance, it was my first time working with Vincent, and he was great, coming up with some intense scenes, and sticking with it despite struggling with first-time nerves. No, the mistake was mine, behind the camera, and mine alone. Halfway through the afternoon, I accidentally deleted footage from three of the five scenes we'd filmed that day.
In retrospect, it's obvious what I should have done differently. I'd majorly overcommitted myself that month and was tired and suffering from burnout. I'd barely slept the night before, got up before 6am, lugged all my filming equipment singlehandedly on public transport from northernmost Greater London to Woking, despite having previously promised myself that it was hire cars or nothing from now on. I don't mean to complain, these were all my own silly decisions, but they perhaps explain why I wasn't at my best.
During the morning, we shot three scenes on two cameras. I operated camera 1 handheld, and Dave Dodgy operated camera 2 on a tripod. Two were F/M scenes, a light-hearted nurse/patient punishment and the judicial caning.
As part of my whole female gaze thing, for these scenes I kept my camera focussed on Vincent, capturing his facial reactions. Meanwhile I directed Dave to zoom in on his bottom during the spanking, and on Molly and Zoe's faces during the dialogue.
We also shot an F/F scene that morning - an instructional video on hand spanking, presented by Zoe and Molly direct to camera. My camera, of course. Dave filmed a second angle to be used for drop-ins and cutaways, but apart from when the ladies are looking at each other, in most of his shots Zoe was looking off to one side, addressing my camera, out of shot.
After lunch we were running late - the last scene of the morning, Vincent's judicial caning, had over-run considerably. (I have a tonne of outtakes to share from that one!) Just as we were ready to start filming The Loose Hem, I noticed I only had a few minutes left on my memory card. Stupidly, I didn't have any spare cards with me. So I used the interface on my video camera to delete some clips from a shoot in July. I knew I had multiple backups of that footage, I just hadn't cleared the memory cards yet. There were a few dozen clips, so rather than spend ages deleting them one by one, I selected the "delete all scenes from this date" option. It previewed the scenes, everything dated 20th July, I confirmed, they were deleted. That cleared enough space on the card that we could press on, and so we had two cameras running for the last two scenes of the day.
When I got home that night on 12th August, I transferred the files from the memory card to my computer and realised that as well as the clips from 20th July, that click had also deleted all the footage we'd filmed that morning. The only clips remaining on the card were from the scenes we'd filmed that afternoon.
I suppose we live and learn. I know, now, to always have spare memory cards with me - in fact I immediately bought some more after this happened. I know now to always do file management tasks via a computer, and never using the camera interface. I know to clear memory cards at home before a shoot. Mistakes are life's best teachers.
The result is that of the five scenes we filmed that day, for the first three I only have one angle, camera 2, Dave's camera. I don't have any of my shots in the F/M scenes, focussing on Vincent's face during the dialogue and the spanking. Dave had followed my direction to zoom in tight on Zoe or Molly's faces, trusting me to keep Vincent in shot, so for half the dialogue I don't even have him in shot as he says his lines. And in the F/F instructional video, all I have is Dave's shots of Zoe talking to someone off-camera. I don't have any of her eye contact .
I've been kicking myself pretty hard about it, you can imagine.
Editing Drunk and Disorderly, Vincent's judicial caning scene, was a pretty miserable process. In the behind the scenes sections I could see myself setting up shots and all I could think about was the lost footage.
Dave snapped a few photos, mostly of the ladies. I was the one shooting Vincent, getting close-ups, capturing details and crucial moments in the strip search, the cuffs going on, the face-to-face interaction between Vincent and Molly as she holds him in position, the look in Vincent's eyes as he anticipates a stroke. And all of my footage is gone.
On the day, Vincent's nerves resulted in us stopping and starting a lot during the dialogue, and we ended up shooting multiple takes of the opening section. I didn't mind at the time, but as we re-started for the third time, I was concerned that the delays would increase Vincent's anxiety before the caning. In the end, those multiple takes saved the film. Dave, seasoned pro that he his, got a different shot each time, which made it possible for me to piece something together that just about covered all the cuts. Vincent's nervousness turned out to be the best thing that could have happened. As a finished product, it's not anywhere near as bad as it might have been.
The thing that still bothers me, about both Drunk and Disorderly and the nurse scene, is that even if I can salvage both of them, they will still look like prototypical 'femdom' that focuses on the female top rather than the male spankee. It's the opposite of everything I'm trying to do with my F/M productions. Given the amount I've griped about the way that many F/M films treat their male spankees, this accident not only damages the quality of my product, it makes me a hypocrite. To say I'm gutted is an understatement. I went out of my way to capture Vincent's experience on his first ever spanking shoot, the effort he put in, his expressions and reactions, and I can't show you any of it. It's a damn shame.
I've captured 60 screengrabs from Drunk and Disorderly, in which I've gone out of my way to show Vincent's face as much as possible. He has his back to Dave's camera for most of the scene, but still, he has some good lines, and you can see enough, I hope, to know I'm not hiding his face deliberately. I have a video interview with him which I'll upload on Sunday, and I'll publish an outtakes video, too.
So despite my self-recrimination, the day was far from a total loss. I have footage from both cameras for the final two scenes, both of which went well. I've already released The Loose Hem, a lovely subversive little domestic teasing/cross-dressing scene.
The other film we made that day was a candid, out-of-character, deep dominance and submission scene between Molly and Zoe, best friends and real life play partners. They approached me about doing a film like this and I left all the details up to them, with Dave and I simply trying to capture their intimacy and interaction as closely as possible.
I was honoured to be admitted into their private scene space, and I think the resulting film is going to be beautiful. I am so, so glad I didn't lose any of that.
Likewise, although I'm missing the primary camera for the hand spanking instructional video, I might be able to do something with it. I'm thinking of taking the audio of Zoe's presentation, and layering it over video from other Dreams of Spanking productions which illustrate her points. It would mean lots of additional work for me as editor, but I only have myself to blame for that. Zoe and Molly's hand spanking demo was a great presentation and I want to do it justice if I can. Hey, at least Dave got some great photos of the two of them.
I've learned some sharp lessons. Hopefully this will be a salutory experience in the long run. Meanwhile, Drunk and Disorderly went up last night and the nursing film is yet to come, and I wanted to tell you in advance why they don't look the way the rest of my F/M productions do. I wanted to show you Vincent's face, his expressions and his reactions. I didn't want the camera to linger exclusively on Zoe as she delivers the caning. I wanted to tell you the whole story. But I can't, because I stupidly deleted Vincent's half.
Still, give it a try. It's a believable setup, with plenty of hot moments, some cheeky backchat from Vincent, and fantastic ad libbed scolding by Zoe. Not to mention a 30 stroke full force cold caning hard enough to satisfy the severity fetishists, which Vincent took magnificently. I've done my best with it, and in the end, I don't think it's turned out badly. And while the finished cut may not treat the male spankee as sympathetically as I wanted, you do at least get more face shots and dialogue from Vincent than in some F/M productions.
I know I'm indulging in perfectionism. It's likely that no-one will care as much as I do, and that I am, as ever, my own worst critic. Thanks to my performers, all three compromised films were good spanking scenes, and even with one camera angle missing, with careful editing they will hopefully be salvagable.
I suppose something like this happens to all us producers sooner or later, but I will definitely be making every effort to ensure I never make a mistake like this again.
I'm halfway through telling you about our location shoot the week before last, but in the meantime I've got a bit behind on sharing our recent videos. Here's the lowdown on our latest two scenes.
A young reporter is visited by her ex-bosses who know she's been working undercover to blow the whistle on their corrupt organisation. 50 strokes of the tawse should ensure her silence.
We were coming up to the end of Alex's shoot with us, and we wanted to make it a big deal. I'd talked to her earlier in the week about scene ideas and proposed ending on a nastier, edgier scene than we'd done previously, with Tom and I playing the bullies who gang up on and intimidate her. Everyone in the UK was talking about Murdoch's phone hacking scandal at the time, and so a whistle-blowing scenario seemed like a good place to start.
"I'm not sure," said Alex, "I don't generally enjoy playing scenarios where my character is defeated or silenced."
"Okay, that makes sense. But would you feel the same way if your character won in the end? Not just morally, I mean, but in terms of actually getting the better of the bad guys?"
"Hrm," she said. "Let me think about that."
So she did, and we talked some more, and on the day, she said she was good to go ahead. We were all nervous going into it, and the dialogue proved tricky for all of us (look out for the forthcoming behind the scenes video to watch all our many, many flubs). While we were cut between takes of the opening conversation, Alex asked, "When you get started, are you guys going to use physical force? Because that would be hot."
Yes. Yes we were.
The resulting scene turned out far more intense than I had anticipated. Tom's and my characters are just relentlessly nasty, in a horribly smug, self-satisfied way. We hadn't planned a total number of strokes, and I was shocked when I came to count them and realised that Alex had taken a brutal 50 strokes with my two most severe leather tawses. No wonder she was shedding real tears by the end.
This is an edgy, forceful intimidation scene that will appeal to fans of hard thrashings, unfair punishments and strong submissives. Our heroine is in the right, and she will beat the bad guys in the end - but sadly, meanwhile it won't save her skin.
Alex Reynolds is an incredible talent, and her courage and conviction make her a perfect match for the role of the idealistic, determined whistleblower. Corporate Intimidation is one of my darker films to date, and I only cast performers I trust completely in this sort of edgy scenario. Alex played it with a combination of sympathetic vulnerability and inner strength that blew me away.
At the other end of the spectrum, our latest F/M film is a flirty, playful domestic storyline sent in to us by viewer joolstheman. We filmed it in August on our shoot with Zoe Montana, Molly Malone and new male spankee Vincent Brennan.
I still need to share the rest of the previews from that day, but meanwhile this is a great little scene to introduce Vincent. He's 39, new to spanking, relatively inexperienced (you can tell from how beautifully he marks!) but extremely enthusiastic, and with a high tolerance.
Before shooting The Loose Hem, we'd filmed a severe caning film with Vincent (my first one with a male spankee - I'm excited to share it). That served a double purpose in providing some beautiful cane welts for this scene. Here's the trailer for The Loose Hem:
Vincent visits his wife's younger sister, Molly, with a skirt that needs hemming. Molly has always been a tease, and now she insists that Vincent model the skirt for her to help her make the adjustments. Her flirting puts him in a compromising position as she discovers his secret: black silk stockings under his trousers, and a set of vivid cane stripes on his bottom, covered thinly by lacy ladies knickers. It turns out that Vincent's wife and her sister have some interests in common!
This is a subversive, nostalgic, erotic short film. It encompasses cross-dressing, sensual domination, teasing, embarrassment, the revelation of slender Vincent's bottom and legs clad in black silk stockings and white satin ladies' knickers - and the further revelation of his cane striped bottom. The step-sister relationship gives it a naughty semi-incestuous twist, and Molly is perfect as the flirty, sexually powerful woman who is perhaps a bit jealous of her older sister's submissive hubby!
Plus of course there is some good old fashioned over the knee spanking with Molly's famously hard hand, and too many strokes to count with a wicked wooden ruler. Members can watch the full video to see Vincent's lovely reactions over the knee, and Molly's naughty storytelling of spankings she and Zoe's characters got as children!
I've posted the full text of the story joolstheman sent me to the scene page for The Loose Hem, so click through to have a read if that's of interest. Jools has sent me various other scenarios which I'd love to shoot in 2014. If you like this film, I know he'd love to hear any feedback you may have.