I’ve always thought there wasn’t enough audio porn in the world.
Partly that’s down to my own particular set of, er, ‘interests’. I once came just from someone talking me into it, no physical touching required, and I’ve always harboured a deep-seated interest in submissive hypnosis - I could write an essay on the wonders of a chatty dominant!
It’s not just that, though: it’s also because audio erotica lets you get lost in your own mind like nothing else does. Much as I prefer radio soaps to their televisual counterparts (because on radio the pictures are better), aural porn is as close as it gets to a two-person solo experience.
In-ear headphones help a lot with this. They sound like the speaker’s voice is right inside my own head, and that feeling has been a powerful element of some of my most memorable sexual experiences. Even when you’re alone, with audio porn there’s no barrier between you and the fantasy at hand; there’s no bright screen to keep an eye on, no variably-formatted text to squint at on your phone. You can invite the story into your mind and let yourself get lost in it.
One of the things that makes porn difficult - both to create as a performer and to find as a consumer - is that everyone wants porn that is exactly their thing. Cis men are usually the assumed viewer, especially if one’s interests run primarily to the femdom end of the spectrum (I can’t really be the only queer female sub who wants to watch femdom stuff, can I?) - and even when that’s not a problem, most of us still want to find porn where the performers are our physical ‘type’ and the setting is one that resonates.
None of that matters with audio erotica. I’m especially fond of scenes like our recent Snake Eyes where the story is essentially a monologue; the submissive is never described, never gendered, never referred to other than as “you”. The encounter could be taking place anywhere - a dungeon, a castle, your own bedroom. Zak, with her calm, commanding voice, could be anyone you wanted to put yourself at the mercy of. This is a story of random factors and precise paddling that comes tailor-made for any subby spanking fan who listens to it.
I get that humans tend to be highly visual creatures, of course, but goddamn - sometimes, I just want someone to whisper into my ear.
Pandora tells me that her latest photoset, Provoking a Caning, was shot by her real-life partner Felix, in the honeymoon phase of their early relationship. You can feel the erotic tension in these pictures. Pandora, in a sexy little black dress, is in the mood for both pain and pleasure. She poses provocatively, giving both Felix and the viewer a flash of her nipples, a glimpse of her arse and then plenty more. She knows what she wants, and she plans to get it.
Felix isn’t going to put up with the impudent teasing for long, though: soon the clear red stripes of an expertly-wielded cane start to appear on Pandora’s bum-cheeks. She’s shown bending over, with her hands on the sofa, dress rolled up and sporting a cute pair of fuck-me shoes. More cane welts appear as the set progresses, and soon Pandora is lying face down on the sofa, displaying her marks. While you never see the cane being wielded, it’s easy to imagine the impact, the swish, the thud and the sting, and Pandora’s aroused whimpers. A few face close-ups show the expression every affectionate, horny sadist loves to see on the face of a well-thrashed submissive.
Much of the joy in this set comes from what is not shown but can be imagined: the flirty dialogue between two people who are hot for one another and still enjoying the process of discovery; the progression from tease-and-please to lusty, urgent impact play… and then what might come afterwards. There’s something both arousing and endearing about getting a little glimpse into a private world which a couple are happy to share with us. It will warm your heart – and probably your parts as well.
I’m going to do something I try to never do when I write: I’m going to preface this article. I wouldn’t usually, but the material is personal and incomplete and may seem a bit rambling and disconnected. However, I suspect that I’m not alone in the questions and conclusions that I’m mulling over, so please bear with me and hopefully there’s a kernel or two that resonates or contributes to a bigger conversation.
When I set out to watch Fetish Fvckdolls 2 (which if you haven’t watched it, I’d encourage you to do so at your earliest convenience) I wasn't expecting it to be a big deal. I’ve blogged here before about how watching porn that’s “not your usual taste” or incongruent with your own desires is interesting and can be enlightening. I was pretty sure that a collaboration by queer and trans performers like Fetish Fvckdolls 2 would be just that: interesting, but not my cup of tea.
Why? Well, I’m a straight-identifying, dominant-leaning cisgender woman who almost exclusively watches gay male chastity porn. Specific? Yup. And really kind of a world away from transfemme submission, which is the overarching main theme running through the four vignettes in Fetish Fvckdolls 2. You can see then how I might have thought that my interest in the film would be purely academic. Interestingly, it was not.
Now, I’m not here to say that this film changed me, nor should the incomplete epiphanies on sexuality that I’m sharing here be mistaken for me jumping on a bandwagon. Neither of those are true. What does feel true, is that I’m feeling really aware of my straight privilege after watching this film.
If you’re a straight person and that term makes you uncomfortable … I feel you. But it should make you uncomfortable. Privilege is a pervasive and dangerous thing when not acknowledged. Honestly, how two-dimensional of me to discount a film like Fetish Fvckdolls 2 as something that couldn’t touch me, something that I wouldn’t be able to identify with! How ridiculous and heteronormative of me to presume that I wouldn’t relate to these scenes. If it was mainstream lesbian porn (you know, the kind performed by cis women for the straight male gaze) would I have been so dismissive? Probably not, because I’m a straight woman who has had sex with other straight women and I’m blisteringly aware of the weight of the male gaze. But I presumed that I wouldn’t relate, or be aroused, by this.
Confused and intrigued, I discussed my bias with my husband, who has recently (or in his words: finally) self-identified as asexual. He watched part of Fetish Fvckdolls 2 with me and commented immediately that he hadn’t even noticed that the performers were trans until the fourth vignette because he was witnessing them as human beings, rather than sexual fantasies. I was surprised by that, because for me transfemme visibility is the point of the project. He asked what would make a film like Fetish Fvckdolls 2 more “my kind of porno”. I didn’t have an answer because I was processing that actually, this is my kind of porn.
Confused? Me too.
How could I think that gay male chastity porn is more relatable to me than porn that has trans women at the heart of it? Am I secretly kind of a bigot? But I know and love so many queer and trans people! Am I not as straight as I thought? Maybe, but that’s not the primary concern for me. The concern is that even though I think I know so much about sexuality, it turns out I don't know as much as I thought.
Yes, yes, we like what we like. The heart/loins want what they want. But it’s becoming evident to me now that the shackles of straight privilege (ie: never having to consider your sexuality or have it challenged, because it’s the cultural default setting) are just that: shackles.
What Fetish Fvckdolls 2 taught me about myself is that heteronormative thinking is limiting because the definitions are so static. “Straight” doesn’t leave much room for variety. Any “exploration” within straight sexuality is expected to be episodic, or at the most, a phase. So when, as a “straight” person, I watched this film, it was a bit dizzying to not see the performers as fantasy objects, and to relate to them on a human level. It revealed to me things I hadn't known before about how objectifying my gaze tends to be.
Fetish Fvckdolls 2 is radical and fresh. It puts trans women at the center of each encounter. Not only are they the subjects of their own experience, they are shown in willing and delighted submission. Not here the degrading porn tropes that cast trans women as exotic freaks with hard cocks, or strip them of autonomy - no, the trans women in Fetish Fvckdolls 2 are very clearly represented as the people they are. Full stop.
I learned that my erotic appetite, regardless of whom I choose to get frisky with, is essentially about the treatment and experience of the people involved, not the combination of bodies I see on the screen. I began to reflect on what turns me on and what turns me off in adult entertainment: it’s not the bodies at all. It’s the dynamics. I haven’t ignored trans porn in the past because it was trans. I've ignored it because when it’s badly done, it’s so likely to be dehumanising.
Fetish Fvckdolls 2 has been made with such smart and mindful intentions by everyone involved that the sexiness absolutely transcends all notions of genre and the limitations of what I thought I could be into. I watched the film three times. It’s 90 minutes long. It took me almost 5 hours of watching this film and then more time processing the experience for me to begin to get my head around these personal biases and blindspots.
What I have learned from Fetish Fvckdolls 2, what I’m so glad to begin to understand about myself, is that I like porn because I watching people fuck. Not just men, not just straight people, not just cishet couples. What I don’t like in porn is mindless and narrowly conceived narratives, and hegemonic control of my gaze. I’m not comfortable knowing that I have been a contributor to that mindlessness, a cog in the wheel of a cultural and artistic system that holds people back, misrepresents them and strips them of humanity, no matter how subtle the effect seems to be.
Having realised that, I want to do better. I know that I won’t always get it right, but only good can come from growth and empathy. And besides, if nothing else, a whole new world of porn just opened up to me, so if you’ll forgive me, I have some catching up to do …
Everyone varies as to how much plot they want with their porn. Some people like an elaborate, detailed storyline with properly-researched props and costumes; others want to go straight to the action. For the more mainstream stuff, ‘the action’ is usually pretty genital-oriented, but when you get into the more diverse, niche stuff, it might be something completely different. (There is, for example, an apparently- thriving sub-genre of porn which focuses entirely on close ups of women’s feet as they struggle to retain control of cars or trucks while driving in unsuitable shoes.)
After School Tease features Pandora Blake in her school uniform, bending over to show off her gorgeous rear in a nice tight burgundy ‘school’ skirt, and striking a succession of poses. That’s it, but it’s fascinating. Pandora’s performance somehow opens up a whole world of imaginative possibilities: what’s she doing? Is she waiting for someone? Is she going to get a whacking? The section of the film where she handles a succession of spanking implements suggests that a spanking of some description might be on the cards, and that it might well be a hard, punitive one. However, the clip’s one line of dialogue is her complaint that her bottom is sore, so perhaps she’s waiting for some aftercare, or maybe something else?
It’s worth noting that there is absolutely nothing explicit on show: the first couple of minutes involve Pandora putting on her tight skirt: we see her in her knickers, school shirt and tie, and there’s something appealingly ritualistic in the way she steps into the skirt, fastens it and smooths it lovingly over her bum. For the rest of the time, she remains fully dressed, but manages to convey all sorts of enticing, kinky possibilities to come. The whole thing has a powerful vibe of anticipation: it's a very good case of ‘less is more.’
So much of the delight of porn is the fantasy, isn’t it? We seek storylines and situations that turn us on and tickle our imaginations, allowing us to transport ourselves into the scene and vicariously experience the unknown. As someone who has had a long-standing interest in spanking and being spanked, I realized while watching Pandora’s Birthday Caning, featuring Pandora Blake and Sarah Gregory, that of course spankings can be lighthearted and loosely structured, all while remaining intense and enthusiastically consensual. It’s sometimes easy to forget that spanking, both giving and receiving, can absolutely be a joyful, exuberant act - it needn’t be limited to discipline, humiliation, punishment, or the other more traditional tropes of the genre.
This spanking film shows how fun and friendship can be excellent catalysts to very exciting spanking and caning porn. If you want to watch quality porn films (and clearly you do if you’re here), palpable chemistry between porn performers should be a basic requirement, in my opinion. Even if the scene is less sexually charged, chemistry doesn’t fall to the wayside.
Pandora’s Birthday Caning is a refreshing film in that sense. There is no obvious seduction, no pantomime of desire. The genuine comfort and authenticity between Pandora and Sarah proves that two people having a warm and sincere conversation alongside OTK spanking can be immensely gratifying to watch. Pandora and Sarah are clearly very comfortable with one another, and that comfort provides a soft and stable grounding to this unscripted, behind the scenes porn film. In lieu of theatrical roles, we get to see sparkling smiles, shy eye contact, sincere compliments and genuine excitement about the thrills of discovering, honing and thoroughly enjoying spanking both professionally and privately.
I absolutely appreciate how genuine this lesbian spanking film is. It’s a conversation between friends and colleagues that creates space for casual erotic experiences to unfold. For me, being able to be a “fly on that wall” is not only intimate and fascinating, it removes the ‘fourth wall’ and makes the whole scene more approachable and accessible than more scripted and dramatic productions. While ‘amateur porn’ has a similar authenticity, a grittiness and realness, and also often lowers that fourth wall, there’s something lovely about watching a personal, candid scene unfolding between two consummate professionals like Pandora and Sarah, shot and edited to professional quality.
I love and appreciate when films can help give you a new perspective on things. In this case, Pandora’s Birthday Caning has given me a new way of looking at spanking that I can now take away with me, continue to mull, and incorporate into my own experiences and fantasies - which makes this film the gift that keeps on giving.
After a quiet year, I have some big news.
I’m stretching my creative wings again with some new queer porn collaborations. Last weekend I filmed a scene with Courtney Trouble and Chelsea Poe with me and Chelsea performing together, which was a dream come true. I have a massive porn crush on Chelsea and we had so much fun. Our scene was (of course!) very kinky and involved butch/femme dynamics, spanking, flogging, makeouts, Chelsea making me squirt everywhere with her fingers and tongue (she kept asking me to cum on her tits, which I’ve never done before - it was very horny) and me sitting on and fucking her face with my cock until we were both drenched in jizz. Chelsea had to hop in the shower afterwards to rinse my cum out of her hair. It was so great to connect with her and I hope we get to work together again.
Courtney, who was our videographer, was so great to work with and made everything super easy. They were warm, sweet and welcoming, delightfully enthusiastic about my gender expression, and helped me get over my nerves. I stopped getting regular pre-shoot anxiety ages ago, but it was a bit scary shooting with two porn icons whom I’ve admired from afar for years. I’m so so glad to have worked with them both and can’t wait to release the finished scene, which is a collaboration and will be distributed through QueerPorn.tv, Dreams of Spanking and other channels.
It's coming. And so are we...
The Spanking Rep is a playful girl/girl switch scene starring spanking superstars Amelia Jane Rutherford and Caroline Grey alongside Pandora Blake. I understand Caroline Grey doesn't make many spanking videos any more, so this film (the last one she had lined up on Dreams of Spanking) is a rare treat.
Normally one finishes a spanking scene by applying cocoa butter to a bruised bottom but in this case, the film opens with Pandora rubbing lotion into Caroline's red bottom - and it works. The premise is a fourth-wall breaking look behind the scenes on a spanking video set. Director Pandora has just finished shooting with performer Caroline, and they are both tired and happy after the day's work. Since Pandora tells me this was also the last scene they shot that day in real life, I don't think it took much acting!
Watching this film, I found that it was really easy to forget that it was a scripted storyline; I found it totally believable. Everything feels so natural; from the slight awkwardness of Amelia, the spanking implement saleswoman who knocks on the door to show off some samples of her company's new range, juxtaposing perfectly with the casual ease of Pandora and Caroline, who seem utterly at home with the world of spanking. The combination made it easy to become completely invested in what was happening.
This film is great fun. All of the women seem to be really into spanking and being spanked. I particularly liked Pandora’s calm confidence, and the way she tested each item on her palm before using it to spank her friend's bottom.
My favourite part however was Caroline’s anxious excitement. Her bottom is already well roasted after her shoot, but since Pandora seems hungry to receive a spanking herself, Caroline eagerly steps in. I loved her gleeful delight at delivering a punishment, combined with the nerves due to lack of experience. It was adorable, relatable, and Caroline's acting is absolutely perfect. I’ve been the one who was learning how to spank, and I know how hard it is to gauge strength and aim, so Caroline's performance really put me in her shoes.
The camaraderie between the three ladies is delightful, and it genuinely feels that they are having fun. I spent a fair part of this video wishing I could join in, and the rest marvelling at these gorgeous kinky ladies and their wonderful chemistry. I love how they take turns trying the different implements on each other, it was fascinating to watch the various techniques and methods they had for taking aim.
As someone who very much enjoys delivering a punishment that leaves a nice reminder on a bottom, one of the things I loved about this scene was getting to compare the different implements, and the way they leave very different marking patterns. This video contains an abundance of pretty red stripes on very sexy bottoms.
If I had to choose, I'd say my favourite was the light tan coloured strap. I think the soft suppleness of it is very deceptive. Almost immediately after the first hit you can see a red stripe appear where the end has hit Caroline’s bottom, and after a few more strokes it has developed into a lovely red mark. Plus, it makes such a great swooshing crack. I think this strap is as close as I’ve seen to an implement that makes a whip crack noise without being a whip. I really liked it - if Amelia knocked on my door with these spanking implements for sale, I think this is definitely a toy I would buy to use on someone myself!
Three gorgeous ladies with a great kinky connection, enjoying switchy spanking fun - why wouldn’t you want to watch this video? The Spanking Rep is a light-hearted spanking roleplay that combines silliness and believability with some great spanking action. Check it out - and when you've watched it, leave a comment and let me know which implement you'd want to take home with you!
Back to School is a super sexy two-part scene starring Molly Malone and Nimue Allen. Nimue is a young teacher who has started working at her girlfriend Molly’s old school, and when Molly comes to pick her up one day they decide to have a little after hours fun.
I love everything about this scene, and I am not alone in that love. It's received more than one fan post; such as this one by Onanist-online, who described it as "one of the sexiest, and beautiful spanking films I have seen in a good while."
What makes this film, I think, is the sexy and intimate relationship between Molly and Nimue's characters. Although they aren't a couple in real life, the chemistry sizzles between them. They are so completely and comfortably at ease with each other, and that familiarity makes this a real treat to watch. Alex Reynolds, writing in her blog Spanking Wishes, commented that "because of the obviously strong chemistry between Molly and Nimue, and the romantic elements in the scene, it feels legitimately intimate.” From lingering kisses to sensual caresses, the pair obviously enjoy the opportunity to play together on camera, and seem completely uninhibited.
I particularly thrilled to hear Molly reminiscing about her school days, explaining how she didn’t necessarily enjoy the spankings she received but would still be thinking about them later in the day. This film is a thoughtful exploration of the difference between the fantasy of a non-consensual childhood school punishment, and the sexy reality of an adult couple enjoying consensual spanking roleplay.
Combining these two sides to spanking gives this scene a taboo element. Spanking Wishes picked up on this; "They’re actually *at* the school, snuck away to have this spanking adventure in a common room. Which is an incredibly hot idea.” I have to say I totally agree. The very appealing way Nimue persuades Molly to put on an old school gym kit (complete with white cotton knickers and knee high socks), adds to the taboo feeling of this scene. While the teasing little conversation about the kit adds to the naughty sexiness, it also reminds us that these are two consenting adults - even if they are playing in a real school, with real school uniform. There is something beautiful and very hot about the smile on Nimue’s face when Molly reappears, blushing, in the gym kit.
I adore the way they connect with each other throughout the spanking, switching roles and positions. Taking time to kiss, stroke, and whisper to each other. They look like they are really enjoying themselves. This connection and consideration of each other just makes the whole scene that much hotter.
I love the moment when Nimue is strapping Molly to the spanking bench, and Molly quips “Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere”. The bench is a gorgeous antique that evokes so many suggestions of old school halls, Headmaster's offices, and school students tightly strapped in place for punishment. Molly surrenders to the experience beautifully, from the first moment she goes over Nimue's knee, to the point where even the stingy wooden ruler melts her into a puddle of submissive bliss. By the time Nimue picks up the cane, Molly is in a state of total submission. There is something about the way she has completely gives herself over that is very sexy.
I can’t talk about this scene without mentioning the really delicious noises that Molly makes when being spanked, the way they grow in tempo and pitch as the session continues is so hot, it goes right through you. Truly sexy noises.
I'm quite into symbolism and for me, there's a lot of it in this scene that reminds me of being at school myself. The white cotton knickers and knee high socks are the white of a virginal veil, and contrast so well with the bright red of both Molly’s bottom after the spanking, and of her painted nails. I love the symmetry of those things, and for me nothing says sexy like bright red nails scraping over a freshly spanked bottom.
I adore this scene; it brings so many different elements together but still manages to fill simple and coherent, and the combined effect of school uniform, a wood and leather spanking bench, sensual kisses, switch roleplay and hard spanking is very hot.
A few years ago a news story broke online which caused a stir amongst spanking enthusiasts. Doctors in Siberia had been promoting a new "whipping therapy" to treat patients suffering from addiction and depression. A 2005 article describes how "Russian scientists from the city of Novosibirsk, Siberia, made a sensational report at the international conference devoted to new methods of treatment and rehabilitation in narcology. The report was called “Methods of painful impact to treat addictive behavior.”" The idea is that addiction and depression often are caused by decreasing production of endorphins - and the pain caused by corporal punishment can stimulate endorphin receptors and rekindle the "production of happiness". The scientists recommended that consenting adults judged psychologically fit for the treatment receive a course of thirty sessions, each consisting of 60 cane strokes on the buttocks, accompanied by counselling and therapy.
Although the therapeutic effects of corporal punishment practised by enthusiasts can hardly claim clinical success, all of us who enjoy spanking know how beneficial it can be. Personally, I find that spanking - particularly caning - grounds me in my body, making me feel calm and centred. Being physically punished focusses me on my breath, in the moment, and quietens my busy mind. When you're being caned, you aren't thinking about anything else.
I find it reduces anxiety and irritability, increases my sense of my own resilience and makes me believe I have the power to tackle the things I'm struggling with, and increases my zest for life. Plus if it's done by the right person in the right way it can be very sexually exciting too.
I'm not a doctor, and it would be presumptuous for any of us to claim that our spanking practice is seriously rooted in medical science. But the idea of spanking as a form of treatment approved by the medical establishment is an appealing fantasy. Plus, it's an excuse for me to pull out my nurse uniform...
In The Russian Treatment, patient Mike Pain has admitted himself to a specialist clinic after suffering from depression and malaise. The clinic is trialling an experimental therapy which uses the application of corporal punishment, beginning with hand spanking in the first session, then - in part 2 - escalating to the strap and, finally, the cane.
The treatment has many benefits. Spanking boosts the circulation and triggers the production of endorphins, the body's natural painkillers. Patients report that it reduces anxiety, relaxes them, and improves sleep and mood. Nurse Pandora is careful to explain everything before asking Mike to sign the consent form - but it turns out that Mike doesn't take much persuading.
Lying over the nurse's knee on the bed, Mike surrenders to a firm hand spanking and deep bottom massage. He seems to take to the therapy very quickly... so quickly in fact that one can't help wondering whether this is the first time he's experienced something like this.
One week later, it's the final session of Mike's course of treatment. In the intervening time he's received daily spankings, including applications with the strap and cane; six strokes from Nurse Molly. Now, Nurse Pandora gives him another dose of the leather strap, administering ever harder strokes as Mike kneels on the wooden stool at the foot of the bed, his whole body rocked by the sharp blows.
Finally, it's time for the last caning of the treatment. On the nurse's recommendation, he receives twelve very hard strokes - a level of punishment that not every patient can endure. On all fours on the bed, Mike's upturned bottom is exposed - and his groans show that the pain is real. Still, as he breathes into each strokes, it's clear that the treatment is having the intended effect.
I really enjoyed making this two part nurse spanking film with Mike Pain and videographer Nimue Allen. It's a fun, satirical take on the Siberian medical caning story, and I think you can tell from the camp dialogue how much the set-up amused us. But there's also an authentic side to this scenario, from the genuinely hard cane strokes Mike bravely takes, to the exploration of the therapeutic benefits of spanking. If spanking for health and wellbeing interests you, you could do worse than to start with the breathing techniques advocated by Nurse Pandora in these films. Just let the pain flow through you... and remember to exhale.
Sometimes a good, long over the knee spanking is all you need to melt. To feel the stresses of the world around you slip away as you surrender yourself to sensation. And with this film, a no-frills, unscripted erotic hand spanking, you will feel yourself melting along with Pandora. I know I did.
Wearing beautifully elegant black lace knickers and hold-up stockings, it doesn’t take long for Pandora to be turned into a puddle of bliss. John Phillips’s firm hand takes her through a long, slow warm-up, ramping up the erotic tension and building a rhythm that has Pandora saying “yes please”.
Confession: that’s pretty much exactly what I was saying too.
There are so many things I like about this scene. Its rawness. The light (because I am both a sucker for beautiful light and also a massive nerd). The moments where the camera closes on Pandora’s face as she flashes us a grin of approval. The build-up to a climax of twelve hard spanks... plus a couple extra for good measure.
Don’t get me wrong; I love getting lost in a good story. I like frills. I like well-thought out scenarios and dramatic build up. But sometimes simple is the most effective way to my heart. And this scene is so gorgeous because of its simplicity. Just Pandora, receiving a delectable, shiver-inducing over the knee spanking.
Sometimes that’s all you need to melt. Even when you’re just watching.