I'm pleased to announce two new male performers who have been cast for our first shoot of 2014! Alexander Knight and Richard Barton will be joining us alongside experienced hands (and bottoms!) Nimue Allen, Molly Malone and our old scene friend John Beecroft for a two day spankstravaganza next week.
With John's help, we've found a lovely old-fashioned venue which will enable us to explore traditional and historical themes including evacuees, wicked stepmother, university student and plenty of school scenarios. Molly, John and Nimue are all switches, which means that over the course of the two days we'll be able to shoot every gender orientation! As always, however, I have far more female spankee material already filmed than male spankee, so the focus for me will be M/M with Alex and Richard on day two.
Dr Richard Barton has made a name for himself as a no-nonsense M/M top for sites such as Sting Pictures, CP Services and Manc Spank. Dr Barton is known for his deadly accuracy with the cane, his fluent scolding and wicked sense of humour.
Richard is a lifestyle player who makes spanking videos for the love of it. He greatly enjoyed the believable storylines and high production values of Sting Pictures, but when they stopped filming in the UK he missed working with them. I was flattered that when he saw Dreams of Spanking, he was sufficiently impressed to write and offer his services.
To find out more about Richard Barton, have a read of this interview over at Jockspank from 2010, which contains some fascinating questions and answers, as well as lots of tantalising spanking photos from various of his films.
I particularly enjoyed his description of the following spanking fantasy he'd love to see immortalised in film:
A seventeenth century schoolroom with lots of dark wooden desks and panelling. At the front is a large desk for me, the schoolmaster. I am dressed in black cap and gown and next to the desk is the birching horse, with a birch rod lying across it. In a basket in the corner of the classroom is a collection of freshly made birches.
The boys are seated at their desks, sweating over their Latin primers. A few of them are already sitting rather gingerly as they have made silly mistakes in their compositions and taken a trip across the horse to have their bare bottoms crispy swished with the stinging twigs – what bliss!
I don't think next week's location will quite do as a seventeenth century oak-panelled schoolroom, but it certainly seems that Richard and I are on similar wavelengths. I'm really looking forward to working with him.
I'm also incredibly excited to introduce our new male star Alexander Knight. I've known Alex for a couple of years. He's in his mid-twenties, a lifelong kinkster with a penchant for rope, spanking and dressing up. He describes himself as a "pain slut" and has been spanked hard in the past, but not as often as he'd like. Best of all, he's a total cutie.
(Photo © Ara McBay for an unpublished shoot for Filament Magazine.)
Alex is totally new to spanking video. He's a switch, but he's a bit nervous about performing on camera and so wants to just play the spankee role until he's got the hang of shooting video. That's fine by me, and I'm sure that by the end of his first day shooting his nerves will be a thing of the past!
We've got some great scenes lined up for Alex, with a mixture of fair and unfair punishments, casting him as hapless schoolboy, deserving student, and gallant Victorian gentleman. And to mix it up a bit, he and Richard will be joined by Molly Malone for a touch of M/FM and MF/M.
I'm really looking forward to this shoot, and to working with Alex and Richard. I'll be sure to report back on what we get up to!
What a month it's been! The last couple of weeks have kept me so busy with design projects, activism, planning April's US tour and other pleasant distractions that I've got totally behind with blogging the latest spanking scenes at Dreams of Spanking. I'll post them two at a time until we're up to date.
First up we have the third and final part (so far) to our historical military series Havelock's Campaign, in which Thomas Cameron stars as the swash-buckling, pleasure-loving hussar Major Harry Havelock.
This was the final scene of our week long location shoot last September. We'd been fiming for six consecutive days and had just finished a day shooting with Andrew Shada. After Andrew's scenes were wrapped, Nimue asked if we could shoot just one more. She'd seen Tom's performance of Havelock in The New Lieutenant and Military Discipline from behind the camera, and had developed a powerful urge to play with him. I was more than happy to facilitate.
The resulting film is really quite special. The intimacy and connection that had developed between the three of us during the week really shone through in this scene, which got rather naughtier than I'd expected.
Nimue's characterisation of the bold, saucy wench who knows exactly what she wants gave the whole thing a consensual spin: for all the historical setting, this is at heart exactly what it was in real life, two likeminded kinksters exploring their mutual joy in spanking and erotic dominance and submission.
Truth be told, I didn't realise quite how naughty Tom and Nimue were being until I came to edit this one. During the shoot I was handling the face camera, and I couldn't see what Tom's hands were doing to make Nimue so flushed and breathless. It wasn't until I loaded both cameras in my video editor and started to piece the scene together that I realised how rude he was being. Oh! I stopped, blushed to the tips of my ears, realised I was really quite turned on, and squirmed in my seat before settling down to watch more. If you want to know what had such a strong effect on me, watch the trailer to the end:
It was hilarious in a way: me, a spanking pornographer, shameless and unshockable, flustered by some unexpected sensuality. It was the surprise of it that really got me - the fact that even though I'd been in the room at the time, I'd had no idea what was happening. I love that even after seven years of making porn. it's still possible to surprise me. .
If you like anal eroticism and genuine intimacy, you'll also enjoy our recent photoset Spank Me In Stockings.
This bonus photogallery wasn't planned. Tom took these photos of me during our date last Sunday; I dressed up for him, and he took some photos thinking that perhaps one or two might be good enough to publish on my blog. I wasn't wearing make-up, and without it, being photographed made me feel unusually shy and vulnerable.
Wearing "spank me" stockings, a ra-ra skirt and no make-up, Pandora shyly poses for her dominant. As he spanks her bottom and thighs, straps her and inserts a plug, nothing escapes the camera's gaze.
The outfit made me feel like a Moulin Rouge girl, a courtesan sent to please a prestigious client with sophisticated tastes. The scene that followed included over the knee hand spanking, the wooden hairbrush on my bottom and thighs, anal exposure, embarrassment and a butt plug that stayed in while he continued to spank me with hairbrush, leather strap, paddle and cane. It was an incredibly erotic scene and Tom continued to take pictures throughout the spanking. Only when our afternoon got much more sexually explicit was the camera left behind.
When I came to look through the photos, to my surprise I realised they were good enough to share. I've never posted photos of me without make-up on this site before. It's yet another act of exposure that makes me feel shy and vulnerable all over again. (Anyone would think I liked it...)
These candid pictures weren't intended for publication, and they weren't staged. This is raw, homegrown, all-natural kink. No make-up, no artifice, just me and my top doing what we do. Enjoy!
Evening all! I've got some lovely spanking updates lined up to share with you from our friends around the 'net.
First up, from our joint location shoot in the autumn, Nimue has a new scene featuring me being most unimpressed with her choice of footwear. She has to prove that her heels are not Too High by putting them on to take a brisk caning - without wobbling or falling over. This shoot also included "shoe cam", the third camera recording a close up of Nimue's feet to capture any tiny movement that might occur, to the amusement of all concerned.
Over at Clare Spanks Men, the tall, stunning and dominant Alexis Grace has hired her boyfriend Bradly King to work for her at the office. When he slacks off, she has no recourse but to put him over her knee for a long, hard spanking to put him in his place and turn his cheeks rosy red.
Meanwhile the lovely Molly Malone is in trouble at English Spankers. Her teacher Mr Nightingale has discovered a priceless hockey stick belonging to the school on sale on the internet, and Molly is selling it. After a whacking with the hockey stick itself, her knickers are lowered for the school strap, and then she must touch her toes for a good hard caning.
At Straight Lads Spanked, Dom has been caught goofing off at work and is due for a dose of discipline. Dom receives a very hard hand spanking over old bruises, but a mere spanking is never going to teach this lad a proper lesson. Mr X decides that the birch will do the job more effectively!
And finally Paingate introduce us to the luscious Eve, who arrives at a dinner party to discover that she herself is to be the evening's entertainment. An elegant and tempting lady, she submits with dignity to bondage and the lash.
Well, my first month as Pandora's assistant has been a brilliant experience so far. I love the way we work together and we get on so well, it's a really promising start and I'm immensely grateful for the opportunity to be part of the Dreams' Team. I'm so much looking forward to meeting the rest of the family at the upcoming cast and crew party for the site's 2nd birthday. But enough of that, onto the fun stuff.
Our new scene this week is a hard-hitting double domme scene with a playful mood, concieved and scripted by our very own Michael Darling. Starring Michael himself, Nimue Allen and Pandora, it's a delicious little tale about female empowerment and taking the fight right to the "seat" of the patriarchy!
There's a new guerilla movement in town, on a mission to bring equality to the art world. No-one expects the London Galleristas! Gangs of feminist activists are roaming the capital, pouncing on unsuspecting gallery owners to check whether their collection includes enough work by female artists. If not, they exact a price on the curator's bottom, until hand and paddle persuade where words have failed. The ladies have pledged that the beatings will continue until every gallery in town achieves equal representation. Viva la revolution!
Pandora had to hold Michael still to stop him wriggling away while Nimue exacted her punishment!
I just love how this scene manages to be sexy and silly all rolled into one. That's my favourite kind! Be sure to check out The Galleristas soon, I hope you love it every bit as much as we do!
It's taken me a while, but finally I'm ready to share the photos from the last day on our big location shoot in September, with new male switch Andrew Shada. If you want to catch up, here are my posts on previous days on this week-long spanking and filming extravaganza:
Andrew arrived the night before, in good time - a relief after our other new male perfomer had no-showed earlier in the week. Before long he and Tom were deep in conversation about mutual interests including LARP and Doctor Who. I was glad that the two of them were hitting it off, because they were scheduled to do several scenes together the next day.
Once we'd popped Andrew's spanking shoot cherry, I decided to give his bottom a break, and it was time for another first: this time, his first video spanking as a top!
This scene is called "First Date" and stars Andrew and Nimue as a young couple who hit it off over dinner. When they get back to Nimue's place she nervously takes the plunge and tells him something he ought to know ... she likes to be spanked! Andrew is new to the idea, but game, and she gently guides him through it, showing him how to spank her the way she likes. He quickly gets the hang of it.
This was a super sweet scene and Andrew did brilliantly, but afterwards he was pretty wiped. "Wow, acting is exhausting!" he told me in surprise. No kidding.
Still, Tom and I had just had a break from being in front of the camera, and we were both good to go. I decided to give Andrew a scene off while Tom, Nimue and I nipped out to take some photos in the garden, as a couple home from a rock gig who can't wait til they get into the house before indulging in some steamy spanking play. Nimue did an amazing job with the photos in this set, and I struggled to pick out just four to show you - I can't wait to share the rest.
While the rain was holding off, we stayed outdoors to film the opening scene of The Water Fight, which was released the week before last. Paternal M/M discipline, and wet, see-through clothing all round!
We took a break for lunch, after which it was time for the last stretch of filming: a sequence of three historical/military scenes inspired by our favourite Napoleonic War fiction: the Sharpe books by Bernard Cornwell, and the Flashman series by George Macdonald Fraser.
I didn't have the budget to source Napoleonic costumes for everyone, so this storyline is set in unspecified Olden Times. Major Harry Havelock of Her Majesty's Hussars is about to set out on a new campaign. He has been assigned a new Lieutenant, fresh from Sandhurst, commission bought with daddy's money, of course. The night before they move out, Havelock summons the young Lieutenant Shada to educate him in the privileges of an officer and a gentleman: wine, wenching, and whipping!
Andrew and Tom blew me away with their acting in this scene. I knew Tom was good, but with the historical military setup I seemed to accidentally have stumbled across Andrew's comfort zone, and he took to it like a duck to water. He gave as good as he got in the aristocratic military banter, including throwing in some authentic colloquialisms even I hadn't heard of, and his performance contributed hugely to story and character development. I'm telling you, this boy has talent, and I'm thrilled to have found a storyline that brought out his best. We will definitely be doing more of this.
Our story continued throughout the campaign, including some old-fashioned M/M military discipline administered by the Major, who has taken on something of a mentor role to the young Lieutenant.
The final scenario I'd scripted was an M/F scene between my character, the saucy wench trained up by Havelock who had been gifted to Lieutenant Shada at the start of the campaign, and Andrew's character. But when the time came Andrew was knackered. His last bottoming film of the day, a hard riding crop thrashing from the Major himself, had taken a lot out of him. He'd more than earned his keep already - three bottoming scenes and two topping ones is bloody impressive on your first ever spanking shoot. I told him to sit down and enjoy a well-earned rest; I was sure we could find something else to do.
Luckily, Nimue had been admiring Major Havelock from behind the camera, and was dying to do a scene with him. "Please can I get spanked by him?" she asked as we made strong cups of tea to power us through the fiftieth spanking scene of the week. "Please?" It was perfect timing, and resulted in an incredibly sexy consensual M/F scene. Nimue played a lively young camp follower who notices that the Major has given his wench away, and decides to take the initiative and present herself to him at night to enquire about the position. He's surprised, but likes what he sees, and decides to put her through her paces there and then.
These three scenes together sum up a huge part of my kink, and they are very close to my heart. It was a pleasure and a privilege to be able to bring them to life with three such talented performers. I'm really looking forward to releasing these, and if you like military, historical, sexy spanking dramas as much as I do, I think you're going to love them.
Our recent F/F video Lady Godiva was inspired by a private session client of mine. The last time we got together he wrote a roleplay based on a real life event which took place during the University of Nottingham student Rag Week, summer 1976.
Nimue finds herself in trouble with the Treasurer of the Pony Club for her unconventional efforts during Charity Fundraising Week. It seems that the Pony Club does not approve of a dressage show that involves naked bare back riding... no matter how much money it may have raised! A brisk whipping with the riding crop will remind her to behave more modestly in future.
When during our shoot last week we found our plans one morning turned upside down when the male spankee I had booked failed to make an appearance, I decided to borrow this idea and use it as the inspiration for a scene starring Nimue Allen and myself as two ladies of the Pony Club.
We are well-bred ladies who live in a traditional English village, where we participate in an equestrian society, riding together, holding socials and charity events. Society morals are strict in this sort of conservative rural environment, and appearances must be maintained at all times. The more senior ladies in the club do not take kindly to breaches of etiquette!
Tom took the photos for this scene with my new stills camera, and I love the results. He has a great eye for a strong spanking image.
You'll be able to see the second episode featuring the ladies of the Pony Club in a forthcoming film starring Leia Ann Woods as the Club President, and myself making a reappearance as Treasurer. I'm currently processing some preview images from our day with Leia Ann during our big location shoot, and am looking forward to sharing them soon.
I was really excited about working with our new male switch performer Phil Fury on Thursday. Phil had contacted me via Fetlife and we'd exchanged many emails getting to know each other and plotting scenes based on his fantasies, and even re-enacting some real life punishments from his childhood. He'd said he would drive over from work (a few hours away) on Wednesday night and arrive late evening. I said I'd wait up to let him in.
Nimue and I went over the callsheets for the day we had scheduled with him, making plans to work around the bruises on my bottom and protect it as much as possible for the severe caning I had planned on Friday.
At 10pm I was already tired after 7am starts all week, and wished I could go to bed, but I knew it was a long drive for him. At 11pm I was yawning, struggling to keep my eyes open after Nimue and Tom had both gone to bed, wishing he'd hurry up. I had told him to text me so I had his number, and I hadn't received anything which was a bit concerning, but I dropped him an email to let him know I would be here to let him in.
At midnight there was still no sign of him and I was getting rather worried and pissed off. At 12.30 I wrote out two notes with my phone number telling him to call me or shout loudly if he arrived, and put one on the gate and one on the house door. Standing outside in the lane at half past midnight surrounded by the whooshing of the trees in the wind, scanning the horizon for any car lights, straining to hear any engine noise from the road above the rushing of the leaves in the woods. We really were in the middle of nowhere and I wondered if he had got completely lost. Still, I couldn't wait up all night, so I locked up, left the downstairs lights on in case he arrived in the middle of the night, sent him one last email to let him know what I had done, and went to bed.
I woke up at 3am and lay there, knowing he had not arrived, and that therefore he wasn't coming. My brain started whirling, devising new plans for the day since the current callsheet had to be scrapped. Of course I would have to bottom instead, but the problem was both that I was already quite bruised, and that I didn't want to incur further damage before Friday. I started dreaming up photosets in which I could wear full knickers or short shorts, F/F scenes I could do with Nimue on the receiving end, and sexy candid scenes or non-spanking BDSM play in which my marks would not show up, or would not be a problem. I typed the ideas into my phone so I wouldn't forget, and soon I had a dozen possibilities - more than we could shoot in one day. Finally after a couple of hours lying awake I was able to steal a precious three more hours of sleep.
I woke up at 8am to my notes still on the door, and tweeted that I had experienced my first no-show. I felt hurt and betrayed. He had seemed so genuine by email. Had it all been a fraud?
Still, onwards and upwards. On the off-chance, I popped Michael Darling a text to ask if he was free today for some last minute paid work. He replied almost immediately to say he was, as it happened, and after a quick phone call he'd arranged to get the train up from London as soon as possible.
Well. So I wouldn't need all my middle-of-the-night scene ideas after all. Time to draw up callsheet #3.
Nimue got up, and together we drank tea, looked at my list of solo scene ideas, planned what to shoot during the morning before Michael arrived, and what we could do when he arrived. Some scenes had been written explicitly for Phil, some were similar to scenes Michael had already done; those couldn't be reused. I try not to write "insert boy here" scenes, and so for the most part we couldn't just swap Michael in to replace Phil and have the scenes still work - which I think means I am doing something right, but does make this sort of last minute change of plan a bit more complicated!
Still, I couldn't believe my luck. I'd be able to get some male spankee scenes shot today after all. What were the chances that Michael would have a day off work today? I suddenly felt extremely honoured to have such amazing performers who were willing to drop everything and come and rescue me at zero notice..
I've already posted the end to this story - that when I checked my email at the end of the day, I discovered an email from Phil sent that morning from the hospital, where he'd been taken after being involved in a collision on the A420 just outside of Oxford on his way to us. Poor lad. So it wasn't his fault, and he was genuine after all. What terrible luck on the way to your first ever spanking shoot. I've been in touch with him since and he is making a swift recovery. Hopefully we'll be able to reschedule in 2014, and film some of the scenes that I'd been looking forward to shooting with him.
Meanwhile, Nimue and I started the day with a solo photoset showing off one of my new corsets, teamed with ribbon heels, fishnets and frilly knickers to mask the belt bruises on my bottom. I'm really happy with how these came out.
Next I got Tom to join me in front of the camera for a classic Janus-style punished wife photoset, which I think I'm going to call "Caned in the Parlour". Cream satin knickers almost cover my bruised bottom... almost. I think I need to get hold of some fuller French/directoire knickers. Anyone want to treat me? I'll be very grateful, and can guarantee you'll see me spanked in them!
Then it was time for my first ever solo masturbation video. I wrote the storyboard for this scene a few years ago, but this was my first opportunity to shoot it. It's called "My Inner Little Girl", and tells the story of a business executive who likes to relax after a stressful day at work with a little age play fantasy, and I'm going to cut it together with some little girl spanking footage I shot with Zoe Montana way back in 2010.
The scene worked out perfectly, with just Nimue and I in the room, already feeling relaxed and comfortable after three days of shooting together - which had included some rather intimate scenes for Nimue's World.
Shooting this scene was a big deal for me. It was my first sexually explicit video (as opposed to photos), not counting a bit of groping here and there, and my first orgasm on camera. It was also my first sexy solo scene. I'm grateful to Nimue for making it such an easy and natural experience, and helping me feel no self-consciousness about masturbating on camera for the first time.
Rewatching it just now to capture some screengrabs was a surreal experience. Apparently I go all red and white and blotchy around the neck and chest when I come. I don't know if that's normal for a porn performer - but at least you know my pleasure is genuine!
Then it was time for the first spanking video of the day, 'Lady Godiva'. This was an improvised scene intended as the prequel to a scenario we were shooting with Leia Ann Woods the next day, and based on a story a private session client had told me. It follows the ladies of the Pony Club who have strict rule of etiquette and deal with any immodest behaviour in a traditional manner. I won't share the full details of the storyline quite yet, as I'm editing this scene at the moment and hope to release it this weekend.
Michael arrived while we were shooting this video, so after making him some tea and helping him with his bags, I talked him through the options for which scenes we could shoot with him, and let him think about it while we wrapped up Nimue's punishment.
In the end, Michael opted to do one of the scenes we'd had planned for Phil, and three new ones. This suited me perfectly, as it means if I can shoot with Phil next year, I still have most of the original scripts to use with him.
I've received a lot of requests lately for male domestic OTK spanking, such as father/son or uncle nephew, and also for male/male scenes with a woman watching. I'd been thinking that it was time to shoot some MF/M, as I don't have any yet and we do have several FM/F scenes now. So I decided to combine the two with a classic domestic punishment scenario in which Michael brings home a bad school report to his strict aunt and uncle.
This is a very traditional scenario, and I'm hoping that our female gaze shooting style will give it a fresh twist, with lots of emphasis on Mike's beautiful bottom and expressive facial reactions. He did look utterly adorable in that school uniform!
Next we used an idea Michael suggested, in which he plays a male chauvinist gallery owner who is visited by feminist activists, and spanked for not representing more female artists in his gallery. This is based on a campaign by the Guerilla Girls, and I love that Michael was up for it. Only a true supporter of gender equality would be willing to sacrifice his bottom for the sake of smashing patriarchy!
To my surprise, shy boyish Michael made a surprisingly convincing wanky hipster in his suit and glasses:
When I realised I'd have Michael on location, I instantly started to wonder if it would be practical to shoot 'The Stableboy', a thirties MF/M scene written by Dreams of Spanking member and long-time Michael fan DeliciousDelight. With the historical farmhouse, the garden and Michael all in one place, it quickly came together. I even managed to improvise a plausible thirties riding outfit from items I happened to have with me!
Phil had requested an Edwardian governess birching scene for the end of the day, and the birches had been soaking in the bathtub since the night before. We'd also planned a Victorian scene with Phil in which he and I played siblings punished by our father. I decided to split the difference with a father/son birching scene. Michael had never had the birch before, and wasn't sure if he could take it, so we concocted a storyline in which he was given the opportunity to choose to take a caning instead.
Michael played the son of the school's headmaster, who with other boys was involved in a May Week prank that got them all caned. But unlike the other boys, after everyone else had gone home, his father summoned him for an additional punishment - not as a pupil, this time, but as his son.
It was great fun dreaming up the details for this storyline with Tom and Michael on the spur of the moment. Sometimes spontaneous scenes are the ones which flow most naturally, and this was no exception. Michael opted for the birch, in the end - and he took it beautifully.
Michael's bottom was done for the day, but we all still had a bit of energy left, so we headed into the garden for one final photoset, based on the first erotic spanking story I ever read. In the story the heroine has two lovers, both male tops, one older, one younger. Unbeknownst to her they conspire behind her back to give her an unforgettable al fresco experience.
The older one surprises her in the garden, blindfolds her, binds her and beats her until she admits she likes it. They take care to only touch her one at a time, and she assumes that the hands caressing her are his - until she feels someone licking and sucking her breasts while she is being whipped, and suddenly realises there have been two of them all along. (In the book it's also revealed that the two men are father than son, adding an extra incestuous twist!)
I hadn't planned to shoot this scene this week, but with Tom and Michael there, and the afternoon light fading to golden, it seemed like the perfect opportunity - and it was exquisitely hot.
It was a privilege to be able to bring so many fantasies to life, and at the end of the day, nude in the garden with rope marks on my wrists, I was a very happy girl.
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Pretty much every night that we were in the cottage, I would plan to blog what had happened that day. Predictably, each evening I was so tired that the idea of doing anything but flop straight into bed seemed impossible. Despite that I did manage to prepare and eat dinner each night, back up my photo and video files, plan the next day's scenes and deal with a few urgent emails, but anything else was beyond me.
As such I have a lot of catching up to do, which seems to be the permanent state of this blog. After Lola Marie we spent two days shooting for Nimue's World, of which I spent one day behind and one day in front of the camera; then three days in a row for Dreams of Spanking, shooting with Michael Darling, Leia Ann Woods and new male switch Andrew Shada.
It was a non-stop, insanely productive week. Nimue produced a total of 20 scenes on her two days, a height of efficiency which is completely beyond me, but even with my penchant for involved, complex storylines I still managed to shoot a total of 30 scenes over my four days, mostly videos with accompanying photos, but also including some standalone photo galleries. Once things started to flow, the three of us (me, Nimue and Tom) slipped into a groove that allowed us to get things done remarkably fast.
I'd love to get photo previews from all the hot scenes we shot up on the blog this week, but realistically it might take me a couple of weeks or more to get caught up. So meanwhile, while it's all fresh in my mind, I just wanted to post some of the more memorable highlights and impressions from the rest of Dreams of Spanking's first week-long location shoot...
Miscalculating the timings on the morning before we left, and having to throw all my packing into my suitcase from the list I'd written the night before at top speed while the cab waited outside.
Getting in a lovely hot bath on the first night we arrived for a soak... and realising that the immersion heater had emptied while both taps were running, and my nice hot bath was in fact a chilly lukewarm bath. Showers for the rest of the week, then!
Taking photos with my new stills camera and falling head over heels in love with the entire process.
Shooting my first needle play scene with Nimue, for her site, with me playing the top role. I'd never done it before and she asked if I'd mind learning on camera. Of course not, I said - in fact I love videos that are transparent about negotiation and show that bottoms can teach tops just as much as the other way round. We did it with two cameras on tripods in the end, so just the two of us in the room, and it was really special. I didn't get the same physical, 'uNf' response that I do with corporal punishment - it wasn't a horny experience in that way - apart from the fact that I was playing with Nimue's amazing breasts, which is always hot. But there was something very mentally and emotionally powerful about it.
I loved the moment when the needle goes in, and the gasp you get in response; then as it travels under the surface it doesn't interact with many nerves, but you can control when the point exits the skin again, and get that intake of breath again. I found it an intense, intimate form of control/power play, with loads of eye contact, and an indescribable jolt of energy as needle pierces skin. There's something electric about it.
Plus, although of course it's difficult to show this on video without pissing off credit card processors, when you remove the needles you get loads of blood, which is always fun to play with. It was the first blood play I'd done for years - since I quit self-harming in fact, which is why I've been avoiding blade/needle play - and it felt very positive for me, very healthy and safe. Plus Nimue's boobs were bruised from the entry/exit points for the rest of the week, which gave me a smug self-satisfied feeling whenever I saw them :D
Building log and coal fires in the living room stove, and heaping blankets on the bed to stay warm at night.
Being brought tea by Tom every morning - and grinning as he called me or Nims "Madame Director" (depending on whose day it was). Love that man.
Trimming apple switches with a penknife to use on Nimue's bottom
Using my gorillapod for its intended purpose, clinging to a curtain rail to drop a high face shot into a very small shooting space. Gorillapod enjoyed its little adventure!
Covering Tom in baby oil and getting him to do press-ups to bulk up his muscles for a sexy male top wood-chopping photoset. Porn for me! (my catch-phrase for the week). Then getting to snuggle up with him in bed afterwards and giggle under the covers. I love my life.
Discovering the extent of my unwanted bruising on Wednesday, and panicking about the big bottoming scenes I had planned for myself (including a 50 stroke full force caning) being ruined as a result. I managed to stay relatively outwardly calm about it, but I was gutted.
Here's an unedited picture of my bottom on Thursday afternoon, showing the remnants of bruising from the belt scene on Monday morning on the middle of my right cheek and in the tender inner area of my right crease. You can also see the cane stripes which have been permanently visible since April, and which are the reason I've regretfully decided to take a break from professional bottoming now until they've fully healed up. The pink bit is where the belt re-opened one fo those scars and made it bleed a bit.
Sitting up on Wednesday waiting for the second new performer of the week - male switch Phil Fury. He was driving across the country after work on Wednesday and due to arrive late in the evening. By midnight there was no sign of him, he hadn't sent the text I'd expected and he wasn't answering emails. I remember sitting there getting increasingly exhausted, grumpy and frustrated. After a week of 7am starts and long days I would normally have gone to bed at 10pm, and I resented every hour of lost sleep. Still, without his phone number there was little I could do. I gave him until 1am, then pinned notes on the gate to the cottage and the front door telling him to call/shout loudly if he arrived in the middle of the night.
By the morning there was still no sign of him. I texted Michael Darling to see, on the off chance, if he was free, and it turned out he was. Meanwhile we got on with shooting some scenes with just the three of us - as a result, Thursday turned out to be our most productive day, because we did five scenes with Michael when he arrived as well. Not a bad outcome for my first ever no-show.
Phil contacted me the following day from the hospital, after being involved in a collision on our way to us, which is about as shitty as you could imagine (and, as we'd observed the night before, pretty much the only valid excuse for not texting sooner). Here's hoping he makes a swift recovery and we can reschedule for a shoot in 2014.
Getting to shoot scripts that have been in my ideas folder for years - and bring some of my most powerful fantasies to life.
Shooting my first ever masturbation to orgasm video, for Dreams of Spanking. It shouldn't really have been a big deal after all the filthy things I shot Nimue doing for her site, but it was my first sexually explicit video (as opposed to photos) as a performer, and my first sexy solo scene, so it was a big deal for me. It felt like it went well - I'm looking forward to reviewing the footage and seeing how it turned out.
Deciding to do a 30s scene with Michael that none of us had brought costumes for, and throwing together a riding outfit with mid-calf skirt, boots and jacket out of items I happened to have with me anyway.
Making crumble with apples, pears and blackberries from the garden - and accidentally carbonising the topping in three minutes flat as we discovered that the temperature dial on the oven was a lie!
Being tied naked in a cupboard... and devising my escape
Dressing both Lola Marie and Leia Ann in various items of Victoriana from my collection
Getting my hands tawsed properly for the first time, which because Leia sensibly brought a relatively thin tawse with her, wasn't as awful as it would have been with a heavy thick one. It's not a kink that I enjoy at the time, but it's excitingly terrifying beforehand and leaves me feeling very brave afterwards, so that ticks several boxes. I'll definitely do it again.
Working myself up into a lather of nervous anticipation before my 50 stroke caning scene that had me faffing around beforehand until we were running nearly 45 minutes late. Everyone was very patient with me, and once the punishment started and I remembered how much I love hard canings, I wondered what all the fuss had been about. Here's the immediate aftermath of 50 full force strokes with two 8mm kooboo canes (right cheek courtesy of Tom, left cheek courtesy of Leia):
Not as dramatic as I'd hoped, but then my bottom is fairly resilient these days. Next time I'll have to take a 6 month break beforehand, and use 12mm dragon canes, clearly...
Chronicling my bruises during the week. Here's my bottom on Saturday morning. Apart from the marks on my left cheek, which are pretty much all from Leia's 25 cane strokes, you wouldn't known I'd taken 50 the day before, would you?
This is the huge bruise on the front of my thigh which I collected accidentally before we'd filmed a single scene at the start of the week, from walking repeatedly into the sharp wooden corner of the bed while setting up lights before I was properly awake. On Monday afternoon it was bright blue and pink and swollen, and it's still there over a week later!
And finally, here is the state of my bum on Saturday evening, after my last bottoming scene of the week, including old belt bruises, permanent cane stripes, residual marks from the 50 stroke caning, and fresh riding crop marks:
Lying awake at night coming up with alternative storylines for scenarios that wouldn't display my unplanned bruises - or for if the next day's model didn't show up - and then a part of my brain feeling disappointed when we didn't have to use them after all.
By Wednesday, feeling like we could do this every day, for the rest of our lives, as long as we had other people to take over the other duties of running the sites. By Saturday, running on empty and knowing there was no way we could have done another day even if we'd wanted to.
Consulting Tom on various historical details, and collaborating with him to get storylines note perfect.
Developing a fullblown crush on a character of Tom's based on Flashman from the George Macdonald Fraser books. I want to have sex with him. It doesn't have to be on camera. Nimue apparently felt the same way, because after we'd wrapped up the scenes on our schedule she asked to bottom to the Flashman character as well, in an unscripted bonus scene. She assured us that she had no objection to it getting rather sexy if we wanted ;)
Falling asleep on Nimue's bosom on the last night, after drinking a mere one and a half glasses of pink wine, and not being capable of any conversation more sophisticated than squeeing at cute animal videos on the internet. Her breasts are very comfortable.
Being so tired on the morning we left that I had to keep sitting down and staring blankly into space... before hauling myself to my feet and folding yet more items of school uniform and period costume into suitcases.
Packing up the cottage simultaneously mourning for the exhilaration, creativity, imagined worlds and sense of family that developed during the week... and being relieved that we'd finished and could finally start to relax.
Back in London, going to the nudist spa with Tom, Nimue and Michael to unwind after one of the most intense working weeks of our lives. Unable to hide the bruises on our bums and instead being open with people we met in the hot tubs about what we'd been up to. We met some wonderful people and made some new friends... and we were all surprised when a pair of total strangers started playing consensual spanking games in the big jacuzzi. Zoe Montana and I raised some eyebrows when we got up to similar mischief last year, so I was relieved to discover we weren't the only ones!
After six hours of sauna, steam, cool swims, sitting and chatting with wine in the hot tubs, the tension of fatigue had drained away and we were all ready to collapse. I fell asleep as soon as I got in the door and, two days later, I'm still feeling the lingering tiredness of having been running such high energy levels continuously for a week.
I've enjoyed looking through the photos so far and can't wait to get stuck into the video footage. I'll process previews for each day's shooting at a time and share some teasers as soon as possible. It's hard to say how successful the shoot was until I've reviewed the footage, but from everything I've seen so far, it was a huge success, and I can't wait to do it again next year!
I'm currently away on location with Nimue and Tom for a week, shooting four days for Dreams of Spanking and two days for Nimue's World. We're now halfway through, absolutely knackered, and very happy with how it's gone so far.
It's been long days of shooting photos and video, with all three of us crewing and performing by turn. The farmhouse we're staying in is gorgeous - we've shot in five different rooms so far, plus the private garden, and quite a lot of the interior is suitable for period scenes. It's also very chilly, more than you'd expect this early in September, but perhaps not surprising given the lack of urban microclimate and central heating. Instead we have heaps of blankets, a log fire and I'm extra lucky to have Tom to snuggle at night, who serves as a man-sized hot water bottle when not dishing out spankings.
The only problem so far has been staying in an isolated historical cottage in the middle of the English countryside without a car, miles from the nearest shops. Sainsbury's Online has been our friend, with more things ordered after we got here and remembered things we'd forgotten in the first shop (including props for various scenes!). However, fresh groceries like milk and salad still keep running out (although we have plenty of wine.... funny, that!) and Tom, our resident smoker, is struggling for the lack of means to replenish his tobacco.
Grocery shortages notwithstanding, tt turns out that Tom, Nims and I are a porn-producing dream team, getting things done smoothly, efficiently, creatively and with minimal fuss. Over the last two days shooting for Nimue's World we've shot a staggering 17 or 18 short scenes, and I'm happy with everything we've produced so far. I've had an awful lot of fun playing with my new stills camera (a Sony NEX-6, for the photography geeks) and it's been lovely to mix up topping, bottoming, shooting video and taking photographs. We certainly haven't had any opportunities to get bored.
On our days shooting for our own sites, both Nimue and I have suffered from a symptom that I'm starting to think of as "director's brainwipe". This is when the person directing for the day starts to experience total decisiveness failure sometime during the afternoon, and her deputy in command has to step in and start making decisions on her behalf. Nimue has acted in this capacity - as a capable, unflappable DoP - on most of the Dreams of Spanking shoots over the last year, and it's been a pleasure to return the favour over the last couple of days.
With this in mind I'm a bit nervous about what comes next: directing for Dreams of Spanking three days in a row, two of them with new performers. I hope I don't get too stressed, too tired or too fussy to be able to keep things running smoothly ... but based on our unexpectedly streamlined teamwork over the last three days, it should be absolutely fine.
We arrived on Sunday night, unpacked, took a groceries delivery and were joined by Monday's guest photographer, Steve. Then it was early nights all round before new performer Lola Marie arrived the next morning.
I've wanted to shoot Lola ever since I saw her first spanking shoot for Spanking Sarah, but this was my first opportunity to work with her. It was well worth the wait. Lola was a pleasure to work with in every way. Gorgeous figure; beautiful face; great modelling skills; fantastic, versatile acting; and she can take one hell of a spanking.
In fact her high pain tolerance probably didn't do her any favours, as she prefers not to over-act or fake any pain responses, so we ended up (with her consent, of course!) spanking her somewhat harder than we normally would on a first shoot in order to elicit convincing reactions. Her poor bottom suffered for it - but the resulting scenes are incredibly hot.
Lola was a schoolgirl who had a crush on her teacher Mr Cameron, and deliberately got herself into trouble so she would be spanked by him - only to realise that a serious punishment spanking with the wooden hairbrush was much less fun than she'd imagined.
Lola was a biker girl who got the belt from the mate who had to collect her (and her bike) in his van after she came off the road while drinking and driving. I loved her tough, streetwise portrayal of this character - and, even more, the on-screen relationship that developed between her and Tom in this scene, rife with brusque, laddish banter that hid a platonic friendship built on genuine care for each other.
Lola was my neglected girlfriend, trying to lure me away from my endless focus on work and chores with some very provocative housework...
And finally, Lola was a Victorian scholarship girl punished by the Headmistress for unladylike behaviour. She'd responded enthusiastically to the idea of a historical scene and we had great fun dressing up together in clothing from my collection of Victoriana, but her bottom was already bruised and sore even before 18 firm strokes of the heavy tawse.
I was delighted with how all her scenes turned out, especially the emotional subtlety of her performances as the girl with a crush on her teacher, and the biker chick with something to prove. I hope to get her back in 2013 - especially now I've learned that she's an enthusiastic switch!
I almost forgot. Before Lola Marie arrived that morning, we'd got up a couple of hours early to squeeze in a scene with me subbing to Tom. I wanted to film a severe belt whipping scene, and I knew I'd be able to take it better when I was fresh at the start of the day than at the end. We brought to life one of my recurring, longtime punishment fantasies, both more physically severe and more emotionally edgy than anything I usually shoot. It was intense, it fucking hurt, I cried buckets, and it was amazing.
I knew I wanted it to be severe enough to leave some dramatic marks on the day, and I knew I'd probably end up bruised. Monday was Lola Marie's day, then Tuesday and Wednesday we were shooting for Nimue's World, giving me (I hoped) time to recover before the next Dreams of Spanking day on Thursday. The welts on my thighs went down over the next 36 hours, and the bruising on my bottom is fading as it should.
Unfortunately, a single stroke that wrapped around the inner leg left a great black bruise which is still very visible, and it certainly won't have gone by the time I bend over for my next bottoming scene tomorrow. We'll have to shoot around it, either with careful camera angles, or spankings over underwear, or both. It's irritating, but a hazard of a week-long shoot where I'm bottoming on multiple days, and it was a risk I knew I was taking. Hopefully it won't ruin the rest of the scenes I have planned with me on the receiving end ... and even if we have to make some changes, I think that belting scene will have been worth it.
Two very different scenes for you this week - one grown-up and glamorous, the other exuberant and silly. First, we have a sensual boudoir photogallery of me completely nude, and secondly a playful puppy play scene with Michael Darling as sexy and submissive as you've ever seen him.
Step into my boudoir, and enjoy some sleepy, sensual photos of me lazing and stretching in my bedroom, fully nude and bathed in early morning sunlight.
These photos are the first set from a recent photo shoot with D, myself and new photographer Matt Christie. Matt is an amazing photographer who specialises in glamour, boudoir and art nude, and to my delight he was comfortable with shooting fetish as well.
It was a full day and we shot thousands of photos, including lots of spanking, glamour, bondage, dominance and submission and some ruder activities too. You know D and I by now, so this shouldn't come as a surprise. I'm looking forward to sharing the rest with you.
At the other end of the spectrum, our latest video stars Nimue Allen and Michael Darling as a kinky couple indulging in some puppy/mistress roleplay. (Or should that be puppy/mummy? I've always felt like the relationship with a pet is closer to "parent" than "master"...)
Puppy roleplay isn't really my kink, although I have enjoyed pet play before. However, it is a huge interest of Michael's and of Nimue's, and I'm always interested in shooting the scenes that genuinely get my performers excited. As soon as they started playing, I began to realise what I'd been missing. Puppy play is awesome. Just take a look at this trailer:
Michael wants some puppy time, and Nimue is happy to play with him. Whether the game is fetch, tug-of-war or sit up and beg, the rules are simple: good puppies get treats, and bad puppies get punished.
I wasn't sure how this scene would turn out, but the shoot was so much fun it had all three of us laughing out loud, and the resulting video is adorable.
Mikey is the cutest happy puppy!
Check out those big puppydog eyes as Mikey lifts his paw to be smacked...
And really badly behaved puppies have to drop to all fours to be punished more severely.
The appeal of puppy play is right there in the name - more than many fetishy activities it is about play in the most direct sense of the world; playfulness, fun, silliness and physicality. Here's what Michael has to say about this aspect of his kink:
Puppy play has been a favourite roleplay of mine for many years. I love how it incorporates elements of BDSM (training, discipline, collars, cages...) but at the same time there's romping and bounding about, scritching and belly rubs and playing around with other puppies. There's a fun and wonderfully tactile sensuality to it: when I'm in puppy headspace I feel incredibly centred in my body and want to run, sniff, lick and explore, and for doing so I'm rewarded with petting, head scritches and enthusiastic cries of "good boy!" It's a playful way of exploring master/pet power dynamics through the eyes of a fun-loving puppy dog.