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Humiliation play on the edge of my comfort zone

Tai Crimson is kink-shamed and humiliated by her abusive therapist in an edgy fantasy from Dreams of Spanking

Before we go any further I should warn you that The Abusive Therapist is a severe spanking film. It is an edgy fantasy direct from the kinky imagination of spanking starlet Tai Crimson. Here's the scene description:

Tai plays a vulnerable young woman struggling with anxiety and intrusive thoughts who begins a course of therapy. She soon finds herself mentioning her spanking and humiliation fetish - but she isn't prepared for the reaction of her therapist, Pandora Blake. Pandora recommends a course of 'corrective therapy', based on the idea that Tai's ideation about being spanked only persists because she doesn't really know what it feels like. Once Tai understands that in reality, spankings hurt and there is nothing sexy about being embarrassed and punished, Pandora declares that Tai will be 'cured'.

Once Tai is thoroughly humiliated, Pandora takes her over her knee and raises her skirt, giving her a no-nonsense firm hand spanking to show her what it really feels like. As the punishment progresses onto Tai's bare bottom, Pandora becomes ever more sadistic. She applies the stingy, vicious bath brush to Tai's cheeks with vigour, punctuating the spanking with a lecture about how sick and disgusting Tai is for fetishising spanking. Pandora makes it clear that she will continue to administer this type of aversion therapy until Tai gets over her 'perversion'. Ultimately, in this humiliation fantasy, is it the patient who is perverted, or the therapist?

Please note that this comes with emphatic trigger warnings for kink-shaming, stigmatising language, and emotional and physical abuse of a vulnerable character by a mental health professional.

DIsclaimer: there is nothing wrong with having a spanking fetish, and this is definitely not how therapists should behave.

I was quite nervous about watching this scene, because while I am dominant I am not really comfortable delivering humiliation. It feels wrong, especially when it involves shaming someone for their kink. The idea of watching this film definitely put me outside my comfort zone. When Pandora (as the performer not the character) admitted how difficult she found it, I could really empathise. However, I should know not to worry when watching a Dreams of Spanking production, because this is really well done. This roleplay is very much led by the performers, and clearly shown that it is done with full consent (and a fair amount of enthusiasm from Tai).

The main film is book-ended with cuts of the performers laughing and joking behind the scenes. For me this really helped, and eased a lot of the concern I had about this type of humiliation. Seeing Tai having a great time before the in-character bit begins helped me relax and enjoy the film as a hot fantasy.

Tai Crimson is kink-shamed and humiliated by her abusive therapist in an edgy fantasy from Dreams of Spanking

Tai has such an expressive face and a few times the camera zooms in on her expression. I loved the way she tries not to show her joy and excitement about the prospect of being spanked, but sometimes the mask slips and we see the arousal on her face. At one point Pandora tells her that only sick little perverts have the thoughts she does, and I noticed Tai let just an edge of a smile slip through. I found this film truly fascinating to watch because of these glimpses of Tai's enjoyment, and because of the energy in the roleplay. The way it all comes together feels very respectful, but at the same time very realistic.

Tai Crimson is kink-shamed and humiliated by her abusive therapist in an edgy fantasy from Dreams of Spanking

Pandora does a great job of making the therapist a believable (and horrible) character, despite the outrageous and untrue things she is saying. The spanking is convincingly hard and very accurate, and Tai’s bottom bruises beautifully. It starts with hand spanking, and moves through a few spanking implements finishing with a vicious split-tailed tawse. The final close-up of Pandora with a slightly evil looking grin on her face, stroking the tawse while watching Tai leave the room, is perfection and finishes the scene perfectly. If you enjoy humiliation play I think this is going to be a must-watch film for you.

Tai Crimson is kink-shamed and humiliated by her abusive therapist in an edgy fantasy from Dreams of Spanking

Let the roulette wheel decide

I was scrolling back through the archive and realised that no-one had written a blogpost yet about Casino Correction. This seems like a missed opportunity, as this is a fantastic spanking film starring Pandora Blake and Mike Pain, with an original concept that I haven't seen before.

Croupier Pandora Blake has been called in for a meeting with her boss, casino owner Mike Pain. It seems she's been distracted on the job, messing up the sums and costing the casino money. The scene begins with the lovely Ms Blake pleading with Mr Pain to keep her job. When that doesn’t work she tries bargaining - it turns out she has an ace in her hand, and her friend in the IT department has told her that Mike likes to look at spanking sites on his office computer. 

At this point it almost seems like she is in control, embarrassing Mike by revealing she knows his proclivity for watching spanking porn. She gets him to agree that she can keep her job in exchange for him giving her a spanking as punishment for all the things she messed up. That’s when everything switches, the power dynamic changes - and when Mike spins the roulette wheel Pandora realises it’s not going to be as easy as she thought.

There is something in the way Pandora is willing to say anything to keep her job, and the way Mike pauses before deciding he can definitely take advantage of her desperation. It's a delicious sense that he has been hoping someone, at some point, will ask him to punish them. A feeling that is reinforced by the fact that he keeps a paddle and belt in his office drawer.

Casino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of SpankingCasino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of Spanking

I loved seeing Ms Blake laid over Mike’s lap, and squirming each time his palm hits her bottom. Her almost petulant “that really hurts!” was just perfect. Mr Pain is now in full control, and making sure she’ll remember her punishment clearly. When he brings out the leather paddle there is a moment when the camera focusses on Pandora’s wide-eyed look of shock which I particularly liked.

Casino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of Spanking

Things get even more fun when Mike lifts her skirt, and we are treated to the sight of the reddening cheeks of her bottom. The marks are lovely, and you can clearly see the edges were the paddle has hit. When he moves on to using a belt, I really enjoyed how clearly you could see each stripe where the belt landed.

Casino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of SpankingCasino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of Spanking

As the behind the scenes video makes clear, Pandora is no stranger to the belt and really enjoys receiving it. I loved finding out exactly what it is that Mike does to make Pandora go "Yummy yummy yummy"! It was also fun to watch Nimue and Mike figure out how to best film the roulette wheel and watch a bit of footage that didn't make the cut in the final scene.

Spanking films where at least one of the characters are meant to be genuinely into spanking can sometimes end up feeling a bit camp or awkward - it's a bit of an odd dynamic, more complicated to bring to life than a more traditional straight-laced dynamic where it's purely about punishment. I know from watching Mike's intereview that he has a fetish for scenes where elaborate punishments are decided by characters who have a secret interest in spanking. Growing up kinky in South Africa, where corporal punishment was still used, his experiences shaped his interest in punishment as an outlet for private sexuality - but in situations where no-one would ever dare to admit it. There's a tension there, and I can really see the appeal.

The best bit of this scene though is the way Mike turns the tables on Pandora with the roulette wheel. The idea of a punishment where fate will decide how many strokes is seriously hot. There's no chance to bargain or wheedle out of it now - the wheel doesn't care how much it's going to hurt.

Casino correction with Pandora Blake and Mike Pain at Dreams of Spanking

Accessibility and audio descriptions at the London Porn Film Festival

The London Porn Film Festival

Last weekend was the first ever London Porn Film Festival - a weekend of queer and feminist porn organised by queer community Wotever World. I managed to catch four out of five screenings, and attended three Q&As to accompany my films that were showing. I really enjoyed myself, and would love to write in more detail about some of the amazing porn I saw - keep an eye on my personal blog, and hopefully I'll post some reviews and recommendations for new hot, kinky, ethical porn when I get the chance.

They accepted two Dreams of Spanking films: Please May I Come, Mistress, and the new fast-paced edit of Bitch, which I renamed Queer as in Fuck You. In honour of its screening I've released it for free on Dreams of Spanking, so if you couldn't make it to the festival, you can watch it without a site membership here!

Screengrab from Queer as in Fuck You

There was a lot of warmth and love for me in screening my work to my home community, a roomful of lovely queers many of whom I already knew. I think everyone else was feeling the love too, because the audience reception to both films was far and above the most positive response I've received so far. Everyone laughed at the jokes, got the little asides and comic moments, and enthusiastically applauded at the end - and I got lovely comments afterwards too from people who'd enjoyed the films. Perhaps it's a Londoner thing - all four performers in the films are from this city, and maybe there's a common sense of humour. But whatever the reason, I appreciated it.

Zak Jane Keir noticed it too, and has written a lovely blogpost about her experience seeing herself on the big screen for the first time

The other factor that seems likely to have made it easier for the audience to get the jokes was that for the first time, both films were subtitled, and we were screening to a roomful of native English speakers. Dreams of Spanking films are often dialogue-heavy, and these two are no exception. Neither has particularly good audio quality; Queer as in Fuck You was shot before I upped my game and started using external mics to enhance sound quality, and Please May I Come, Mistress was an unexpected and spontaneous shoot when I didn't have my usual equipment. A couple of German speakers in Berlin told me that they found the rapid, quiet speech during the interviews hard to follow, so I was very happy to subtitle it in French for La Fete du Slip in Switzerland.

London Porn Film Festival were even more on the ball with language and accessibility - in fact, they were the most accessible porn film festival I've ever been to. Filmmakers were asked to submit English subtitles and audio description files for every film, to improve access for hearing and vision impaired members of the audience. The audio description was to be "exactly the same length, down to the frame, as the video file, and match up with it".

When I first got the email asking me to create those resources, I was fascinated to observe a short, intense ableist response flare up in me. Rather than admiring the LPFF for their strong stance on accessibility, my immediate reaction was frustration, feeling that this extra, unpaid work would be fiddly, tedious and unwelcome. Particularly around the audio description, I felt something along these lines: I've already created this film in my preferred medium to tell this story, it's done now. I don't want to have to go back and retell it another way, a way I never designed it to be told, having to comply with someone else's specifications! It's going to be unrewarding, and screening films at film festivals is meant to be about MY creative satisfaction, damnit!

Writing it out now, it sounds ridiculous - and in fact it didn't take long for me to get over myself and realise that of course creating accessibility materials was part of my job, and it was an honour to help my work reach a wider audience of people who were interested in viewing it, but wouldn't normally be able to. In fact, providing these sorts of materials was probably something I should be doing as a matter of course. So I made a conscious effort to shake off the ableist and self-involved reluctance, and got down to it. There was only one problem: I had never made an audio description file before, and I had no idea where to start. 

The more I thought about it, the more confused I got. Surely an audio description of the film would take significantly longer than the film, as visual information is communicated more quickly than speech? Should I use the original dialogue and music to retain the voices of the performers and add mood and atmosphere - but then, that wouldn't leave many gaps to insert description?

Luckily, the lovely folks at the London Porn Film Festival were ready to answer my questions. They explained that audio description is transmitted at the same time as the film with a loosely-fitting headset, so whoever listens to the AD will hear all the film sound, including music and dialogue, as well as all the sound in the AD. Not all visually impaired people are blind, and many can see part of what's going on on-screen, which is why the timings need to match up, so the AD makes sense with the visuals they're seeing.

In fact, the advice they sent me was so valuable that I asked their permission to repost it in full. Since I was new to this, it occurred to me that other filmmakers might be, too; and so this guidance might be useful to others who want to make their work more accessible to visually impaired people.

The AD file should be just voice. Of course, not being able to describe everything is frustrating. But a lot of the personalities of Zak and Charlie can be picked up through their conversation, and their relationship is discussed in detail - perhaps their physical appearance is secondary? Very often, you go after what gaps are available and fill those with what seems right at that time, and that's as good as it's going to get.

I work professionally with AD scripts for mainstream TV, and I prioritise in roughly this order, with everything above taking precedence over everything below:

1. Not running the script over any dialogue or plot-pertinent sound effects, e.g. doorbell ringing

2. Stuff that's mentioned in dialogue but not explicity, e.g. someone points at a chair and mentions it without saying "chair", at which point the AD would say "Jim points at a chair" or whatever.

3. Characters present. Names if they've been introduced, brief descriptors if not.

4. Location.

5. Actions.

6. Description of setting.

7. Description of characters' appreance and (non-plot-essential) clothing.

I'd say that in the majority of AD scripts I do, I rarely get below level five, and even then many actions that happen during dialogue will have to be excluded.

Armed with this information, I sat down and began the process of watching the films while noting down brief descriptions of actions every time there was a gap in the dialogue - and with these two films, there aren't many! I then did a second pass, reading my AD script aloud while playing the film again, and deleting anything that didn't fit. Once I had the wording down I set my mic up on my desktop, with the film soundtrack playing in headphones, and recorded the audio description at the same time as listening to the film audio. Finally, I laid the film soundtrack as a second track in Audacity and went through the recording and tweaked the timings of the audio description to make sure it didn't overlap any of the dialogue. Then I deleted the film soundtrack, and exported the audio description file complete with gaps in all the right places.

For two films, it was a long job, and sadly I don't have the resources to offer it as a matter of course for all Dreams of Spanking scenes. But it was an illuminating process. It enabled me to connect with my films in a new way, and perceive them as aural experiences, learning how they come across differently without the visuals. And it was fascinating to think about how visually impaired people might enjoy porn, and how pornographers might approach their work differently in order to create multi-sensory experiences that work on different levels for different types of viewer. It would be so cool to create a film that was just as effective an erotic experience if it was enjoyed aurally, or visually, as well as the combination of the two.

I'll upload the audio descriptions of Queer as in Fuck You and Please May I Come, Mistress to the scene pages, so you can try them out if you want to - and there are subtitle files for both films too, including both English and French for the latter. Plus, of course, if your sight doesn't permit you to fully enjoy Dreams of Spanking films visually, you would probably enjoy our audio spanking stories.

In the end, after a bit of a reluctant start, I enjoyed creating the audio descriptions for the London Porn Film Festival. And I was delighted when after the screening, someone came up to me after overhearing me talking to someone else, and recognised my voice from the audio description. They told me they'd really enjoyed it and they thought I'd done a great job with it. At the end of the day, that makes it all worthwhile.

Fantasy and possibility in Lucy's Punishment

Photo of schoolgirl Lola Marie at Dreams of Spanking

I have decided I love audio porn. It’s like bedtime stories for grown-ups; all that’s missing is the “are you sitting comfortably, then I’ll begin”. They are perfect for curling up in bed and listening in blissful solitude; whether you’re looking for kinky inspiration for your own partner play, to inspire sexy dreams, or just to stimulate you in the moment. Pandora Blake’s voice is a perfect balance between throaty arousal and moderated calm.

Lucy’s Punishment by Rosie Bower is a delightfully naughty audio spanking story about a schoolgirl who fantasises about being punished by her teacher, Mr Roberts. She decides to make her fantasies reality, and sets about pushing all her teacher’s buttons until she gets what she wants. When her provocation has the intended effect, and he loses his self-control and tells her to see him at the end of school, she spends the rest of the day in a cloud of anticipation.

However, punishment is never what we expect it to be, and when Lucy’s begins by her being made to list her crimes she realises she might be getting more than she bargained for. She is told to lift her skirt, pull down her knickers, and count each stroke. I really enjoyed the part when she finds out that forgetting to count out loud means that she has only extended her punishment.

There is a delicious moment when something in her shifts, and she begins to truly enjoy the humiliation of her punishment - especially when Mr Roberts ups the ante by bringing in other unseen teachers to watch her be caned. She is held in the moment by the pain of each stroke, but at the same time finds herself drifting into fantasy; imagining what else she wishes they were doing.

The glimpse into Mr Roberts' thoughts when Lucy asks for that last stroke of the cane is beautifully done. It gives a window into all the possibilities that might have been, from the perspective of the person who is truly in charge of this situation, in a way that Lucy’s idle fantasies don’t.

When we share Lucy’s thoughts before she makes herself request one more stroke of the cane, it is as if we are somehow watching her evolve. She finds a maturity that involves realising and taking responsibility for her sexuality, her provocative actions, and her sexual future. It really added something to the story, turning a lovely sexy tale into something that sparks something more in our imagination.

This lovely - and very hot - schoolgirl caning story is a perfect candidate for audio porn because it involves so much imagination and fantasy. It's easy for the listener to imagine themselves in the story; although whether you relate more to Lucy or Mr Roberts is up to you.

A sexy selection of spanking implements

The Spanking Rep is a playful girl/girl switch scene starring spanking superstars Amelia Jane Rutherford and Caroline Grey alongside Pandora Blake. I understand Caroline Grey doesn't make many spanking videos any more, so this film (the last one she had lined up on Dreams of Spanking) is a rare treat.

Normally one finishes a spanking scene by applying cocoa butter to a bruised bottom but in this case, the film opens with Pandora rubbing lotion into Caroline's red bottom - and it works. The premise is a fourth-wall breaking look behind the scenes on a spanking video set. Director Pandora has just finished shooting with performer Caroline, and they are both tired and happy after the day's work. Since Pandora tells me this was also the last scene they shot that day in real life, I don't think it took much acting!

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

Watching this film, I found that it was really easy to forget that it was a scripted storyline; I found it totally believable. Everything feels so natural; from the slight awkwardness of Amelia, the spanking implement saleswoman who knocks on the door to show off some samples of her company's new range, juxtaposing perfectly with the casual ease of Pandora and Caroline, who seem utterly at home with the world of spanking. The combination made it easy to become completely invested in what was happening.

This film is great fun. All of the women seem to be really into spanking and being spanked. I particularly liked Pandora’s calm confidence, and the way she tested each item on her palm before using it to spank her friend's bottom.

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

My favourite part however was Caroline’s anxious excitement. Her bottom is already well roasted after her shoot, but since Pandora seems hungry to receive a spanking herself, Caroline eagerly steps in. I loved her gleeful delight at delivering a punishment, combined with the nerves due to lack of experience. It was adorable, relatable, and Caroline's acting is absolutely perfect. I’ve been the one who was learning how to spank, and I know how hard it is to gauge strength and aim, so Caroline's performance really put me in her shoes.

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

The camaraderie between the three ladies is delightful, and it genuinely feels that they are having fun. I spent a fair part of this video wishing I could join in, and the rest marvelling at these gorgeous kinky ladies and their wonderful chemistry. I love how they take turns trying the different implements on each other, it was fascinating to watch the various techniques and methods they had for taking aim.

As someone who very much enjoys delivering a punishment that leaves a nice reminder on a bottom, one of the things I loved about this scene was getting to compare the different implements, and the way they leave very different marking patterns. This video contains an abundance of pretty red stripes on very sexy bottoms.

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline GreyGirl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline GreyGirl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

If I had to choose, I'd say my favourite was the light tan coloured strap. I think the soft suppleness of it is very deceptive. Almost immediately after the first hit you can see a red stripe appear where the end has hit Caroline’s bottom, and after a few more strokes it has developed into a lovely red mark. Plus, it makes such a great swooshing crack. I think this strap is as close as I’ve seen to an implement that makes a whip crack noise without being a whip. I really liked it - if Amelia knocked on my door with these spanking implements for sale, I think this is definitely a toy I would buy to use on someone myself!

Three gorgeous ladies with a great kinky connection, enjoying switchy spanking fun - why wouldn’t you want to watch this video? The Spanking Rep is a light-hearted spanking roleplay that combines silliness and believability with some great spanking action. Check it out - and when you've watched it, leave a comment and let me know which implement you'd want to take home with you!

Girl/girl switch spanking with Amelia Jane Rutherford, Pandora Blake and Caroline Grey

New video diary

A new video blog from me about yesterday's photoshoot for Dreams of Spanking, how I decided what to shoot and how, and some hints about what you can expect on Dreams of Spanking over the coming months. Worth a watch if you're interested in how the looming Digital Economy Bill in the UK will impact the site. Enjoy!

The hotness and humiliation of being punished by the Head Girl

The Head Girl punishes a naughty schoolgirl and schoolboy at Dreams of Spanking

I wasn’t sure how I would get on with audio porn. As a writer, part of me loves the idea because I’m all about the sexy words - but I know I can be quite fussy about audiobooks. It’s all about the person reading them, the voice giving you the words. The wrong tone and the story is ruined. With the right voice though, it can be a wonderful experience. Audio porn allows you to use your imagination while listening, and it can be a great way to really put yourself in the scene, especially with the intimacy of earphones.

I shouldn’t have worried though. Pandora Blake, who narrates most of the audio stories on Dreams of Spanking, has a lovely voice that seems perfect for audio porn. Head Girl, written by Rosie Bower, is a smart sexy story that gives a twist to traditional school punishment scenes. Head Girl Julie learns she has to punish her friends for various misdemeanours. When her friends refuse to take the threat of her punishment seriously she finds herself getting angry, and decides to make them respect her authority as Head Girl.

The anger she feels gives Julie confidence in what she is doing, and she takes total control of the situation, forcing her friends' obedience to her will. What I really like about this spanking audio story is the way Rosie Bower shows us the thoughts of each person in the scene. It gives us an insight into what makes each character tick, and delves deep into their embarrassment, humiliation, indignation and other feelings about being punished by Julie.

My favourite punishment in this story was Liam’s, the cool guy who thinks he can get away with doing whatever he wants. The story takes on an extra dimension of hotness when it's revealed that despite himself, the humiliation of the situation is arousing him. His helplessness in the face of his body's betrayal and the way Julie uses it to embarrass him further is really hot. I adored Julie’s glee when she learns how much she enjoys administering punishment. There's a moment when she has to mentally remind herself that this exercise is about teaching Liam an effective lesson, and not about her pleasure. It's delightful - and it made me think that actually it seems very much about both.

As a whole, this story is equal parts hot and discomforting. A school story in which some cool, rebellious kids have to resentfully submit to punishment from their teachers' pet friend is one that many of us might be able to put ourselves into, one way or another. The fact that this is an unwanted punishment, which they still find arousing even as they hate it, creates a delicious tension. It also raises fascinating questions for me about about the psychology of punishment and humiliation.

I have to admit that the character I find myself identifying with the most was Julie. I love the way that she reflects on past resentments and jealousies to fuel her determination to carry the punishment through to its conclusion. And of course, I love dishing out a spanking and decorating a bare bum with marks that will leave a reminder to re-enforce the lesson - and the idea of doing so to my squirming friends who thoroughly deserve it is very appealing.

So my verdict on audio porn? I found this story super hot, and I enjoyed the process of listening to it more than I expected. I enjoyed imagining the scenario and Rosie Bower creates some enticing images that will stay with me. I loved was the image of the two girls bent over the desk, and of Liam bending over clutching his ankles, naked, embarrassed and unable to constrain his erection. So sexy.

The Head Girl punishes a naughty schoolgirl and schoolboy at Dreams of Spanking

This post is illustrated with pictures from Head Girl spanking video A Taste of Their Own Medicine, starring Zoe Montana, Jimmy Holloway and Pandora Blake.

S'il vous plait est-ce que je peux jouir Maitresse

La Fete du Slip is a gender and sexuality film festival in Switzerland (I think it's slip as in panties or underwear). It's been running for a few years and has gained prestige in the international porn community, and Dreams of Spanking is joining them for the first time this weekend.

I first tried to take part in La Fete du Slip in 2015. After Houseboy won the Berlin Porn Film Festival short film competition, I felt encouraged to submit it to other festivals. But sadly it seemed that it wasn't to La Fete du Slip's taste. I figured that I was unlikely to make a better film than that any time soon, so perhaps my work just didn't suit them. I didn't think it would be worth trying again. But I was pleased and surprised in Berlin last October when Stéphane, one half of the brother-and-sister organising team, found me after the Fetish Porn screening to tell me that she'd loved Please May I Come, Mistress, starring Charlie J Forrest and Zak Jane Keir; and that she wanted to screen it at La Fete du Slip. Well!

Charlie and Zak in Please May I Come, Mistress at Dreams of Spanking

So here I am, on the Eurostar to Paris, where I'll change trains and venture to Lausanne - my first visit to Switzerland. I am curious to discover whether the home of milk chocolate and cheese fondue will have vegan food I can eat. I'm sharing an airbnb with porn friends Livia and Parker Marx, and I'm so looking forward to catching up with them both, seeing other international porn fam, and immersing myself in queer, sex positive community.

When I watched Please May I Come, Mistress in Berlin I was pleased by how it came across, despite the appalling picture quality. (It was a DIY porn shoot; I hadn't intended to shoot porn that day, didn't have lights, and only had my oldest camera with me. If you don't know the story of how I came to shoot spontaneous porn at Eroticon with two brand new porn performers you can read it here.) But it was noticable that it was hard to catch what Charlie and Zak were saying. They both speak quite fast, and I hadn't had a proper audio recording setup; despite my best efforts to boost the dialogue, it was still hard to make out. So I'd already decided that I was going to need to create English subtitles for it at some point.

Charlie and Zak in Please May I Come, Mistress at Dreams of Spanking

For La Fete du Slip, however, I needed French subtitles. I ran my English transcript through Google translate, but was well aware how lacking the result would be. I turned to Twitter to see if I could recruit a native French speaker who wanted to help with the translation in exchange for free porn. Big thanks to @bdsmfreq who valiantly stepped in. Did you know that the French for "come" is jouir? I do now.

Despite BDSMfreq's generous support, turning the French transcript into actual subtitles was a different ballgame. La Fete du Slip prefer hardcoded subtitles, and I would have liked to have had that much control over the aesthetic, but when I tried to use Premiere's built in subtitle feature the formatting and positioning looked terrible, and I couldn't work out how to fix it. Free subtitle software was equally frustrating. In the end I created a .srt file and hand-noted the timecodes for each line of dialogue, which the organisers kindly accepted. But this was my first time creating subtitles, and I'm nervous that I haven't left enough time for each line to be read. I'll be watching it on the big screen with my heart in my mouth to see if anyone can follow what's said.

Hopefully my efforts will be legible. But even if not, the bondage, spanking, teasing and orgasm control is still pretty hot.

Charlie and Zak in Please May I Come, Mistress at Dreams of Spanking

A vintage Dreams of Spanking scene - and a slice of personal history

Victorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of Spanking

Since Dreams of Spanking launched, I've been impatient to edit and release The Victorian Brothel. I chose the image of me over Tom's knee, wearing bloomers and a corset, as the homepage header image back when I designed the site in the summer of 2011. I always intended to create a rotating gallery of images on that header, showing a wider variety of scenes, but somehow I never found time.

I was incredibly proud of this film when we shot it. This was my second ever shoot as producer/director, a day with Zille Defeu, her husband Duncan, our friend Jay, Tom and me. The first Dreams of Spanking shoot had just been me, Jay and Tom. Those early shoots were a steep learning curve for me.

Until The Victorian Brothel, every scene was a crash course in new aspects of filming that I had to work out from scratch. There was a lot of stopping and starting. Trying to juggle the mental demands of directing with the physical and emotional challenges of bottoming on camera, I found it hard to avoid getting stressed. But The Victorian Brothel was our final scene of the day, and it was the first scene I'd produced that felt like it went well at the time. With Duncan, Zille and Jay behind the camera, Tom and I got into character and the roleplay flowed. It felt as natural as the roleplay scenes we played in private. Trusting our friends to capture our live improvisation, I was able to immerse myself in the scenario, get fully into character, and surrender to the beating without having to balance that headspace with other, more technical concerns. As a result I was able to take a much harder spanking, paddling and caning than I usually can while performing/directing, and I was really happy about it. 

Victorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of Spanking

That was over seven years ago, in early December 2009. The reason I didn't edit this film before the site launched, along with the other two scenes we shot that day - Caned in Jodhpurs and Liberated Ladies of the Jazz Age - is simple. The Victorian Brothel was originally written as part of a series of films entitled The Adventures of Molly Brown. I'd written several episodes of it; this was the fourth chapter in the story. I hadn't had a chance yet to shoot episodes one to three, but the shoot with Zille and Tom was a perfect opportunity to shoot the episode in which my character meets his for the first time. I very much intended to shoot the others at some point, however; and I wanted to wait and release them in story order.

Sadly, I never got a chance to film the backstory. Episodes one, two and three fell by the wayside. And when I realised that the age verification policy in the Digital Economy Bill was going to put a cut-off point on my ability to keep the site alive in its current form, I finally accepted that I wasn't going to get the chance to shoot them any time soon. Meanwhile, I'm trying to release as much of the content I care about while the site is still legal in the UK.

So Molly Brown's story starts here: with her first appointment with a new customer in Mrs Slater's brothel. An urchin who grew up in the streets and the workhouse, Molly was sent out to work for various undesirable trades, but somehow always found herself sent back to face the the steely glare - and the hard leather strap - of the beadle. When Mrs Slater turned up to see if he had any new girls for her, he packed her off to the brothel - and Molly's life entered a new chapter.

Victorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of SpankingVictorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of Spanking

Scrubbed to within an inch of her life, Molly began her transformation into a girl Mrs Slater's customers might find appealing. She earned her share of licks from the madame, too; but it was nothing compared to the beadle's strong right arm. When Mrs Slater saw how well Molly took her punishment, she thought to send her to one of her more eccentric clients, a gent with a predilection for administering corporal punishment to the plump bare bottoms of comely wenches. Molly lacked the elegance and accomplishment of other girls, but she was resilient and quick-witted, and Mrs Slater saw the potential to train her up to please her more unusual clientele.

Molly took well to Mrs Slater's training, and was finally declared ready to meet her first customer. But although Molly is no stranger to taking a beating, she still is not particularly inclined to behave submissively. Sparks fly between her and the gent as he tries to bend her to his will, and her quick tongue and stubborn nature get her into more trouble than she'd bargained for.

Victorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of Spanking

So that's Molly's backstory. You never know, it's not impossible I might be able to shoot the previous episodes sometime in the future - although perhaps I'll look too different by the time the stars align, and I have affordable access to the venues and cast I need. In the meantime I think this scene stands well enough on its own. Although I can tell you now that the next chapter has also been shot, and will be released in the coming weeks, starring myself, Tom, and a new character played by Leia Ann Woods...

Coming back to this film to edit it, seven years after it was filmed, was a weird experience. Tom and I split up three years ago, and it was very strange to watch us on camera. I almost felt like I was watching someone else; and yet in other ways seeing us together all those years ago felt very real, and very personal.

I remember writing this scene for us to play. Although Tom plays a very overbearing, bullying character, and to the uninitiated perhaps this scene might be edgy enough to seem non-consensual, I can tell you for certain that this scenario was my fantasy, and performing it was an authentic act of self-expression. But it was fascinating and somewhat dissonant to watch this recording, a piece of my own personal history, and reflect on how much has changed since then.

Victorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of SpankingVictorian wench Pandora Blake is punished by Thomas Cameron at Dreams of Spanking

There are some aspects of this film that I would definitely do differently nowadays. For instance, the way that Tom's patriarchal character throws around the word "whore" makes me wince, now, as an advocate of sex workers' rights who is fighting against stigma and whorephobia. These days I would seriously consider before I took on the role of a historical sex worker, but back then I didn't think twice.

Editing this, I had the opportunity to reflect on how far Dreams of Spanking has come - not only politically, but technically. The Victorian Brothel was shot before I knew to record audio separately from the cameras, or to use face lights. It was a frustrating edit in some ways, as I struggled to salvage a legible soundtrack from two cameras that both had audio isses - one picking up a lot of wind noise (from where I have no idea, given we were indoors), the other plagued by mechanical clicks and whirrs from the operation of the camera. But I feel like I've managed to massage it into a shape that communicates my vision, hopefully without too many technical distractions. I hope you'll forgive any that remain.

For me, the power of this film comes from the interaction between the characters. It's a hard corporal punishment scene, both physically and emotionally - the intensity brings me/Molly to tears towards the end. But not only is the spanking itself severe, the atmosphere of the scene is rife with tension. The scenario unfolds as a battle of wills between a cruel gentleman with particular tastes, and a spirited wench who doesn't know when to keep her mouth shut. I certainly took more strokes, and harder, than if Molly Brown had been submissive than rebellious. But I loved it.

Life has moved on since Tom and I filmed this scene. We are no longer together, and there have been many changes for both me and Dreams of Spanking. But this film holds a special place in my heart. It shows what Tom and I did best - hard, accurate spanking that pushes me to my limits, quick-witted dialogue, sparks flying between two strong characters, and Tom's trademark brand of elegant, articulate dominance.

When I filmed this scene, it seemed to encapsulate everything I wanted to achieve with Dreams of Spanking: immersive roleplay between real life partners, lush costumes and locations, and imaginative historical settings with a quirky sense of humour and a rich attention to detail. That was why I chose a still from this scene as our banner image - and why, although much has changed since then, I'm still very pleased to share it with the world. 

Loud music leads to hard spankings

Our latest male/male spanking video Turn That Music Down is a domestic punishment scene starring Fauni Cate and Richard Barton. In this hot little film Fauni plays a rebellious young metal-head who plays his music far too loud at home. After yet another call from neighbours complaining about the noise, Dr Barton decides to make sure that this time he will get to the bottom of things. He is determined that the punishment, and the lesson, will be well learned.

Fauni Cate gets an OTK spanking from Dr Richard Barton at Dreams of Spanking

Fauni and Richard have a really great on screen connection that plays perfectly into this scene. The combination of Richard’s frustration at having to apologise to yet another neighbour, and Fauni’s resentful attempt to avoid punishment, creates a lovely sense of suspense. I found myself watching closely, waiting to see who would ‘break’ first. As someone who can be a bit of a brat I really felt for Fauni; he has a "I know I’m wrong but I have things to do and you won’t really hurt me” attitude which Ifound very familiar. But the side of me that loves dishing out a punishment was totally with Richard on this one; sometimes you just need to make sure your lesson is delivered in such a way that makes sure it sinks home.

Fauni Cate gets an OTK spanking from Dr Richard Barton at Dreams of Spanking

Fauni’s protests, and complaints as the punishment starts, are lovely but not as lovely as his mumbled apologies that get louder and clearer as his punishment continues. There is a moment where he kicks his legs up, and is quickly reminded that he needs to keep those heavy boots on the floor and away from Richard's face. I love it when a sub wriggles while they’re being punished, even though they know it will only increase their punishment; they just can’t help it. It’s why I don’t always use restraints, watching a spankee wince and apologise as they try to control their involuntary movements is so much fun, and it is one of the things that I loved so much in this scene. At various points Fauni is lying over Richard's lap completely helpless, dangling and kicking with his legs in the air, and it is such a sexy position for a spanking.

Fauni Cate gets an OTK spanking from Dr Richard Barton at Dreams of Spanking

The slight gleeful grin we see flash across Richard’s face as he punctuates his demands - that the young man gets some headphones -  with spanks is terrific. Almost as though he slipped out of character for a second and was just revelling in the sheer delight of delivering a thorough spanking. He also leaves Fauni’s bottom a very gorgeous shade of red, you can even see slight bumps and purpling at the end. This is a simple and very appealing m/m spanking scene between an older man and a cute younger boy, and the punishment is hard enough to make an impression.

Fauni Cate gets an OTK spanking from Dr Richard Barton at Dreams of Spanking

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